もぬけのからだ || An Empty Shell

歌詞

極限的な魅力を身に纏う君ら
向こう岸で僕を待つわけはないんだ
平均的なやる気も持ち合わせぬ僕は
剥がれかけの僅かな自信
見下げて笑っていたいな
曲がっていたいよな
座っていたいから
椅子に身体縛り付け

跳び越せないまま
泳いだら流されてしまう模様
見上げても今は
飛び上がれない僕の脚はだめだ

無言でいたって時間は経って
素通る今
季節に沿った言い訳並べて

夢をくさいもんだって知った
夢に潜り込んでった未来でも
笑っていたいのに
唾飲み込んで
わかったフリして
何もできないけど

跳び越せるかな
心臓が砕けてしまうまで
行かなければまた
君らになれず
孤独にまどろむ

人呼んでそう「普通」
君らは昔って言う
嗤っていたいから
見下す素振り隠してる

途切れ途切れの僕の声
明日も杞憂しそう
跳び越せるのが
ろくでなしの仲間入りだとしても
かまわないから

Romanisation

kyokugen na miryoku o mi ni matou kimira
mukou kishi de boku o matsu wake wa nai nda
heikinteki na yaru ki mo mochiawasenu boku wa
hagare kake no wazuka na jishin
misagete waratte itai na
magatte itai yo na
suwatte itai kara
isu ni karada shibari tsukeru

tobikosenai mama
oyoidara nagasarete shimau moyou
miagetemo ima wa
tobiagarenai boku no ashi wa dame da

mugon de ita tte jikan wa tatte
sudooru ima
kisetsu ni sotta iiwake narabete

yume o kusai mon da tte shitta
yume ni moguri konde tta mirai demo
waratte itai noni
tsuba nomikonde
wakatta furi shite
nani mo dekinai kedo

tobikoseru kana
shinzou ga kudakete shimau made
ikanakereba mata
kimira ni narezu
kodoku ni madoromu

hito yonde sou “futsuu”
kimira wa mukashi tte iu
waratte itai kara
mikudasu soburi kakushiteru

togire togire no boku no koe
ashita mo kiyuu shisou
tobikoseru no ga
roku de nashi no nakama iri da to shitemo
kamawanai kara

Translation

All of you clothe yourselves in extreme glamour
and there’s no reason for you to wait for me on the opposite shore.
I don’t even have the average level of motivation handy
and my meagre self-confidence is about to come unstuck.
I want to look down on others and laugh.
I want to change direction.
I want to sit down
So I tie myself to the chair.

I still can’t jump across.
Whenever I swim, I just get swept away.
Though I look up,
I can’t spring away. My legs are no good.

I continued in silence and the hours passed.
The present passes by.
I marshalled excuses that matched the seasons.

I knew that dreams were suspicious—
Even in a future where I’ve slipped into dreams.
I just wanted to smile.
I swallowed
and pretended to understand
though I couldn’t do anything.

I wonder if I can leap across
before my heart breaks.
If I don’t go,
I can’t be like all of you.
I doze off in isolation.

I was known as the ordinary one.
That’s what you said in the past.
I want to ridicule others
so I hide the behaviours you despise.

My voice comes in fits and starts.
Looks like I’ll be full of needless anxiety again tomorrow.
To be able to leap across,
I don’t even care if I have to join
a pack of delinquents.