ビョーキ未満 || Not Sick Enough

歌詞

今日は調子悪かっただけだった
ちょっと出来ないことが多かった
少し気分が乗らないだけで
また冷蔵庫の開く音がする

今日はまだ昼だし大丈夫
ちょっとだけだしきっと大丈夫
そんなこと言ってたのにいつの間にか
目の前に広がってるゴミの山

押し寄せる罪悪感に焦り吐き出そうと
構えてみたけれどやっぱだめでした

きっとわがままなだけなのさ
だって日常生活支障なし
ほら病名なんて出ませんよ
だってずっといつまでも病気未満

そうきっと甘えてるだけなのさ
そういうことにしときゃ構われない
ほら大丈夫だって言っとけば
自身保証無いからビョーキ未満

今日は調子悪かっただけだよね
ちょっと人とうまくいかなかった
黙って寝てわすりゃいいのに
まだ冷蔵庫の中手を伸ばす

過ぎたことはしかたがない
じゃいますぐなかったことに
それすらも出来なずに
日付けが変わる

きっとわがままなだけなのさ
また怖さに縋って逃げるだけ
ほら病名なんて出るわけがない
もうずっといつまでも病気未満

そうきっと甘えてるだけなのさ
そういうことなんだよ信じてよ
いざ疑われると怒るくせに
ずっと酔ってたいだけのビョーキ未満

きっとわがままなだけなのさ
ほら上れないなら下るだけ
もう病名なんて出ませんよ
だってずっといつまでも病気未満

そうきっと甘えてるだけなのさ
そういうことなんだねもういいよ
ほら結局自分が認めない
認められないから病気未満
認められたいだけのビョーキ未満

幸せに生きてごめんなさい

Romanisation

kyou wa choushi warukatta dake datta
chotto dekinai koto ga ookatta
sukoshi kibun ga noranai dake de
mata reizouko no aku oto ga suru

kyou wa mada hiru dashi daijoubu
chotto dake dashi kitto daijoubu
sonna koto itteta no ni itsu no mani ka
me no mae ni hirogatteru gomi no yama

oshiyoseru zaiakukan ni aseri hakidasou to
kamaete mita keredo yappa dame deshita

kitto wagamama na dake na no sa
datte nichijou seikatsu shishou nashi
hora byoumei nante demasen yo
datte zutto itsu made mo byouki miman

sou kitto amaeteru dake na no sa
sou iu koto ni shitokya kamawarenai
hora daijoubu datte ittokeba
jishin hoshou nai kara byooki miman

kyou wa choushi warukatta dake da yo ne
chotto hito to umaku ikanakatta
damatte nete wasurya ii no ni
mada reizouko no naka te o nobasu

sugita koto wa shikata ga nai
ja ima sugu nakatta koto ni
sore sura mo dekizu ni
hizuke ga kawaru

kitto wagamama na dake na no sa
mata kowasa ni sugatte nigeru dake
hora byoumei nante deru wake ga nai
mou zutto itsu made mo byouki miman

sou kitto amaeteru dake na no sa
sou iu koto na nda yo shinjite yo
iza utagawareru to okoru kuse ni
zutto yottetai dake no byooki miman

kitto wagamama na dake na no sa
hora noborenai nara kudaru dake
mou byoumei nante demasen yo
datte zutto itsu made mo byooki miman

sou kitto amaeteru dake na no sa
sou iu koto na nda ne mou ii yo
hora kekkyoku jibun ga mitomenai
mitomerarenai kara byouki miman
mitomeraretai dake no byooki miman

shiawase ni ikite gomennasai

Translation

I just felt bad today.
There were lots of things I couldn’t do well.
I just couldn’t really get in the mood.
My fridge makes a sound as it opens again.

It’s still noon so it’s okay.
It was only a little so it’s okay.
I said all that stuff, but before I knew it
a mountain of trash was right in front of me.

I feel like I’m gonna throw up, flustered by encroaching feelings of guilt.
I tried to prepare for it but, as expected, it was no good.

I’m just selfish. That’s it.
I’ve got no obstacles in my daily life after all.
See? There’s no diagnosis.
In the end, I’m never sick enough to be ‘sick’.

Yes, I must just be spoiled.
If I make it that, nobody will worry about me.
See? When I just tell people I’m okay
there’s no personal guarantee, so I’m not sick enough.

I just felt bad today.
Things didn’t go that well with others.
It would be great if I could just shut up, sleep, and forget it all
but I still reach inside my fridge.

You can’t do a thing about what’s already happened.
Alright, I’ll make it so it never happened right away.
Unable to do even that
the date changes.

I’m just selfish. That’s it.
I’m only running while clinging to fear.
See? There’s no diagnosis.
I’ll never be sick enough to be ‘sick’.

I’m just selfish. That’s it.
That’s all it is. Believe me
even though I get mad when I’m doubted.
I just want to be drunk all the time. I’m not sick enough.

I’m just selfish. That’s it.
See? I can’t rise so I’ll just come down.
There’s no diagnosis anymore
In the end, I’m never sick enough to be ‘sick’.

Yeah, I’m just selfish. That’s it.
That’s right. I don’t care anymore.
See? I myself don’t acknowledge it.
I can’t acknowledge it, so I’m not sick enough.
I want to be noticed, which is why I’m not sick enough.

I’m sorry for living happily.