ENDOKU || LEAD POISONING

ENDOKU
LEAD POISONING

Vocals: 初音ミク (Hatsune Miku)
Lyrics: 宇田もずく (udamozuku)
Composed by: 宇田もずく (udamozuku)
PV release date: 28 February 2020

Requested by: tojork_
Watch the official video on YouTube!


日本語

怠惰な安堵でちょっとさ
崩れてしまったよ
案外脆かったね
案外脆かったね

丁度良いはどこにもないから
「君のせいにできたらよかったなあ」

いつからはじまった
冷えた電球を触っていた
くだらないとかさ
冗談でも言わないでね

胃の奥の奥に溜まった
鉛に少しずつ侵されて
動けなくなっていく身体を
他人事のように見つめていた

見せびらかす事もできないで
抱えたわりに扱えなくて
自分で自分の頭を撫でた

望んでいたものはなんだ
望んでいたものはなんだ
幸せだけを分け合っていこうよ
嫌なものは全部置いていきたいのに

君が君が君が君が
ちゃんと触れようとするから
私もいつかを待てる気がしてしまう

光がぼやけると
美しいからさ
私は
視力が落ちた
ことに感謝しているよ

Romanisation

taida na ando de chotto sa
kuzurete shimatta yo
angai morokatta ne
angai morokatta ne

choudo ii wa doko ni mo nai kara
“kimi no sei ni dekitara yokatta naa”

itsu kara hajimatta
hieta denkyuu o sawatte ita
kudaranai toka da
joudan demo iwanai de ne

i no oku no oku ni tomatta
namari ni sukoshi zutsu okasarete
ugokenaku natte iku karada o
taningoto no you ni mitsumete ita

misebirakasu koto mo dekinai de
kakaeta wari ni atsukaenakute
jibun de jibun no atama o nadeta

nozonde ita mono wa nanda
nozonde ita mono wa nanda
shiawase dake o wakeatte ikou yo
iya na mono wa zenbu oite ikitai noni

kimi ga kimi ga kimi ga kimi ga
chanto fureyou to suru kara
watashi mo itsuka o materu ki ga shite shimau

hikari ga boyakeru to
utsukushii kara sa
watashi wa
shiryoku ga ochita
koto ni kansha shite iru yo

Translation

Through lazy safety
I crumbled to pieces.
It was unexpectedly fragile.
It was unexpectedly fragile.

There’s no such thing as ‘just right,’ so
“if I only I could have blamed it all on you.”

It began sometime in the past
while I was touching a cool light bulb.
Even if it’s a joke,
don’t say it’s all worthless.

Little by little, I was afflicted
by the lead gathered deep in the depths of my stomach.
I looked at my body, which gradually stopped moving,
like it was somebody else’s problem.

I was unable to show off
and it was hard to handle, even though I had it in my hands.
I stroked my own head.

What was I longing for?
What was I longing for?
Let’s only share our happiness.
I just want to leave behind everything I hated.

You, you, you, you…
I’m trying to touch you properly
so I end up feeling like I’m waiting for some day in the future, too.

When the light dims
it’s beautiful
so I’m thankful
that my eyesight
has gotten worse.

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