虹色の絶望 || Rainbow Despair

虹色の絶望
niji-iro no zetsubou
Rainbow Despair

Vocals: 鏡音リン (Kagamine Rin)
Lyrics: NaNaMiL
Composed by: NaNaMiL
Release date: 11 January 2020

Requested by: Kitkat
Watch the official video on YouTube!


日本語

こんな現在を想像創造したのは
臆病なキミなのかな
散々な目に合ってきたのは
これまでの精算かもね

今は何回目のゲームかな
あと何人残るでしょう?
選択肢を間違えて
繰り返しはしないでね

愛されたって記憶を奪われて
もうどうしようもないくらい嘆いてた
そうキミとさ出会わなければ
お互い幸せだった
帰れない過去を今嘆く度
もう変えれない事にも気付くから
その痛みでボクをここにさ繋ぎ止めて

ちょっとぐらい冴えてるんだって勘違い
そう言う所なんじゃない?
まだまだ詰めの甘いキミが
ボクにはほっとけない運命

今で何回目のゲームかな
ボクの事を失望させないで
ほらもう次の審判
見落としはしてないかな

止められたって理性を抑えられない
もうどうしようもないくらい壊したい
鈍いキミに苛立ちを覚えて
ここでさ終わらせようか?
もどかしさはキミには伝わらないや
キミとはいずれ分かり合いたかった
これで今回は終わりにしちゃうからね

募らせたっていい
泣き叫んでもいい
今までよく耐えたよね
ここで終わりにして
全てが丸く収まるように何度も願った

叶わないって気付いた幸せに
あの日からボクを縛り付けて
魘されてるんだ毎晩毎晩
ここから早く連れて行ってよ

愛されたって記憶を奪われて
もうどうしようもないくらい嘆いてた
そうキミとさ出会わなければ
お互い幸せだった
変えれない過去を今変えたいから
差し伸ばすよこの手をキミの方へと
今度はボクをここにさ置いていかないで

Romanisation

konna ima o souzou shita no wa
okubyou na kimi na no ka na
sanzan na me ni atte kita no wa
kore made no seisan kamo ne

ima wa nankaime no geemu ka na
ato nannin nokoru deshou?
sentakushi o machigaete
kurikaeshi wa shinaide ne

aisaretatte kioku o ubawarete
mou dou shiyou mo nai kurai nageiteta
sou kimi to sa deawanakereba
otagai shiawase datta
kaerenai kako o ima nageku tabi
mou kaerenai koto ni mo kizuku kara
sono itami de boku o koko ni sa tsunagi tomete

chotto gurai saeterun datte kanchigai
sou iu tokoro nan ja nai?
mada mada tsume no amai kimi ga
boku ni wa hottokenai sadame

ima de nankaime no geemu ka na
boku no koto o shitsubou sasenaide
hora mou tsugi no shinpan
miotoshi wa shitenai ka na

tomerareta tte risei o osaerarenai
mou dou shiyou mo nai kurai kowashitai
nibui kimi ni iradachi o oboete
koko de sa owaraseyou ka?
modokashisa wa kimi ni wa tsutawaranai ya
kimi to wa izure wakariaitakatta
kore de konkai wa owari ni shichau kara ne

tsunoraseta tte ii
nakisakendemo ii
ima made yoku taeta yo ne
koko de owari ni shite
subete ga maruku osamaru you ni nando mo negatta

kanawanai tte kidzuita shiawase ni
ano hi kara boku o shibaritsukete
unasareteru nda maiban maiban
koko kara hayaku tsurete itte yo

aisareta tte kioku o ubawarete
mou doushiyou mo nai kurai nageiteta
sou kimi to sa deawanakereba
otagai shiawase datta
kaerenai kako o ima kaetai kara
sashinobasu yo kono te o kimi no hou e to
kondo wa boku o koko ni sa oite ikanaide

Translation

I wonder if it was you, the cowardly one,
who created where we are now.
I guess it was calculated
for me to experience such suffering.

How many times has this game run?
How many people are left?
Make the wrong choice
and there’s no going back to redo it.

I was loved, but my memories were stolen away
and now I’ve grieved myself sick.
Yeah, if we had never met
we both would have been happy.
Each time I mourn a past I can’t return to
I realise that I can’t change things
so come on, tie me here with that pain.

I think I’m a little bright but I’m not right.
That’s not it at all, is it?
You don’t see things through
and that’s a destiny I can’t ignore.

How many times has this game run?
Don’t make me despair.
See? We’re already at the next trial.
You’re not missing something, are you?

Even though I’ve been stopped, my reasoning can’t be controlled.
I just want to break everything to pieces.
I get irritated at you.
Shall we end things here?
My frustration just doesn’t reach you.
I just wanted us to understand each other eventually.
I’ll end things here this time ‘round, okay?

I don’t care if it makes things worse.
I don’t care if you scream.
You’ve endured well until now.
I wished over and over
to end it here so we can work things out.

I realised I would never be happy
and since that day, I’ve been tied up,
and I’ve been having nightmares night after night.
Hurry, take me away from here!

I was loved, but my memories were stolen away
and now I’ve grieved myself sick.
Yeah, if we had never met
we both would have been happy.
I want to change a past that cannot be changed
so I’ll reach out to you.
This time, don’t leave me alone here.

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