空蝉 || A Shell

空蝉
utsusemi
A Shell

Vocals: KYO, YUU, WILL
Lyrics: solcluster
Composed by: solcluster
Upload date: 25 June 2013

Requested by: be be
Watch the official video on NicoNico!

Based on comments by the producer, this song seems to be about a man who died in battle, and was ‘resurrected’ as a puppet with a soul inside him. He then seeks to make the one he loves happy, but he can’t since he technically isn’t the same as he was when he was alive.

It looks like the man’s name is Nox and his lover’s name is Serenade.

The title refers to a cicada shell, but given the underlying story, I got rid of ‘cicada’.


日本語

愛する事を知らずに
朽ち果てて逝ければ良かったのに
胸の奥 痛む『心』に
蓋をして この地獄を征く

いくら側に居れたとて
決して
伝えられぬ 届かないと
知りつつ叫ぶ小夜曲
生き抜く為の勝利を
決して
離れないと 泣かせないと
誓う為の『魂』の歌

愛した人の背中を
思い出させるだけの『罪人』
存在 全て罪でも
此処に居る事の証明を

雪の様に消えたとて
せめて
足跡でも 疵痕でも
遺したいこの小夜曲
『誰か』の代わりであって
何も
遺せないと知りながらも
足掻く姿嗤えば良い

夢の中なら
愛し愛せるのに
目覚めて思う

「産まれたかった」

いくら側に居れたとて
決して
愛されない 想われない
覚悟の上の小夜曲
想い全て飲み干して
ただの
剣であれ 武器であれと
祈る物の『魂』の歌

Romanisation

ai suru koto o shirazu ni
kuchi hatete ikereba yokatta noni
mune no oku itamu ‘kokoro’ ni
futa o shite kono jigoku o yuku

ikura soba ni ireta tote
kesshite
tsutaerarenu todokanai to
shiri tsutsu sakebu sayokyoku
ikinuku tame no shouri o
kesshite
hanarenai to nakasenai to
chikau tame no ‘tamashii’ no uta

aishita hito no senaka o
omoidasaseru dake no ‘zainin’
sonzai subete tsumi demo
koko ni iru koto no shoumei o

yuki no you ni kieta tote
semete
ashiato demo kizuato demo
nokoshitai kono sayokyoku
‘dareka’ no kawari de atte
nani mo
nokosenai to shiri nagara mo
agaku sugata waraeba ii

yume no naka nara
aishi aiseru noni
mezamete omou

“umaretakatta”

ikura soba ni ireta tote
kesshite
aisarenai omowarenai
kakugo no ue no sayokyoku
omoi subete nomihoshite
tada no
ken de are buki de are to
inori mono no ‘tamashii’ no uta

Translation

If only I could have withered and died
without knowing love.
I put a lid on my spirit
deep in my aching heart, and I wander in Hell.

I screamed out this serenade
knowing all the while
that no matter how long I may be by her side
I wouldn’t get through to her. I can’t reach her.
This victory is so we can survive
and this song
is sung by a ‘soul’ to swear
that they won’t be separated, that they won’t make her cry.

I’m a ‘criminal’, someone who just makes her remember
the back of the one she loved.
My entire existence is a sin
but give me proof that I’m alive…

I sing this serenade wanting to leave
something behind,
whether it’s footsteps or a scar
even if I vanish like snow.
Just laugh at me, floundering around
knowing all the while
that I’m a substitute for someone else
and can’t leave anything behind.

Though I could have loved and been loved
if this was a dream,
I awaken and think

“I wanted to be born.”

I sing this serenade
resigned to the fact
that no matter how long I may be by her side
she won’t love me or feel for me.
This song is sung by a ‘soul’
who prays
that they can just be a sword or weapon
with all their feelings exhausted.

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