溺惑 || Addicted

日本語

泣く迄 甚振りたい
赦しを乞う慟哭
歪んだ悦楽を微睡む顔がせがむ

私情に裁かれたい
重ねた罪分け合い
余した欲望を刺し違える歓び

縺れる心を解いて過ぎ行く日 愛でた
明け暗れ拒んだ報いを朝陽に照らされ知る

求めて壊して離れられぬよう
縛られても穢しても未だ惹かれてる
見詰めて焦らして燃えて尽きるよう
結ばれても泣き濡れるなら
互いの熱を飽く迄 奪い合おう
憂いを晒す斜陽

嘘でも愛されたい
項をなぞる小指
確かな存在を噛み締められる至福

記憶を飲み干したい
無情を貫いても
弄ばれる夢 永久に惑う現世

償い疲れた未来をこの身ごと消して
契りを躊躇う言葉を貪る舌で埋めた

傷めて捩れて跡が残るよう
欺いても暴いても未だ信じてる
疼いて悶えて声が果てるまで
蔑んでも絆された儘
水泡に触れる震える恍惚感
浅瀬で溺れている

剥がして呻いて傷を舐めさせて跪いて口付けて又狂わせて
喘いで絡めて夜毎押し伏せて辱めて事切れる迄

求めて壊して離れられぬよう
縛られても穢しても未だ惹かれてる
見詰めて焦らして燃えて尽きるよう
結ばれても泣き濡れるなら
互いの熱を飽く迄 奪い合おう
憂いを晒す斜陽

Romanisation

naku made itaburitai
yurushi o kou doukoku
yuganda etsuraku o madoromu kao ga segamu

shijou ni sabakaretai
kasaneta tsumi wakeai
amashita yokubou o sashichigaeru yorokobi

motsureru kokoro o hodoite sugi yuku hi medeta
ake kure kobanda mukui o asahi ni terasare shiru

motome kowashite hanarerarenu you
shibararetemo kegashitemo mada hikareteru
mitsumete jirashite moete tsukiru you
musubaretemo naki nureru nara
tagai no netsu o aku made ubai aou
urei o sarasu shayou

uso demo aisaretai
unaji o nazoru koyubi
tashika na sonzai o kamishimerareru shifuku

kioku o nomihoshitai
mujou o tsuranuitemo
moteasobareru yume towa ni madou utsushiyo

tsugunai tsukareta mirai o kono mi goto keshite
chigiri o tamerau kotoba o musaboru shita de umeta

itamete nejirete ato ga nokoru you
azamuitemo abaitemo mada shinjiteru
uzuite modaete koe ga hateru made
sagesundemo hodasareta mama
minawa ni fureru furueru koukotsukan
asase de oborete iru

hagashite umeite kizu o namesasete hizamazuite kuchidzukete mata kuruwasete
aeide karamete yogoto oshifusete hazukashimete kotokireru made

motome kowashite hanarerarenu you
shibararetemo kegashitemo mada hikareteru
mitsumete jirashite moete tsukiru you
musubaretemo naki nureru nara
tagai no netsu o aku made ubai aou
urei o sarasu shayou

Translation

I want to torment you until you cry.
You wail, begging for forgiveness.
My dozy face begs for twisted pleasure.

I want to be judged by my self-interest.
I want to share all my sins with you.
This is the joy of thrusting our excess lust at each other.

I spent my days untangling my heart. I was in love.
Rejecting daybreak, I suffered my punishment when the morning sun shone on me.

I want and destroy. I hope we’ll never be parted.
Whether I’m tied up or defiled, I’m still attracted to you.
I stare and tease and burn, like my life’s running out.
Even if we’re bound together, if I’ll end up crying
then let’s struggle with each other until we’re sick of each other’s warmth.
The setting sun shines harshly on sorrow.

I want to be loved, even if it’s a lie.
My pinkies trace along the nape of your neck.
Bliss is pondered by someone real.

I want to drink up your memories.
Even if I stick with my heartlessness
I dream of being toyed with in an eternally lost world.

I erase a future tired of atonement with my entire body.
I buried words of hesitation over our promise with my tongue.

I wound you and twist you so scars will remain.
I deceive you and expose you, but you still trust me.
Throb and be in agony until your voice dies out.
I despise you yet I’m still touched by you.
I touch the froth and tremble in ecstasy.
I’m drowning in the shallows.

Flay me, make me moan and lick my wounds. Make me kneel, kiss me and send me mad.
Make me gasp and twine ‘round me each night. Press me down and humiliate me ‘till I die.

I want and destroy. I hope we’ll never be parted.
Whether I’m tied up or defiled, I’m still attracted to you.
I stare and tease and burn, like my life’s running out.
Even if we’re bound together, if I’ll end up crying
then let’s struggle with each other until we’re sick of each other’s warmth.
The setting sun shines harshly on sorrow.