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Vocals: VY1 and/or 初音ミク (Hatsune Miku)
Lyrics: ぺぽよ (Pepoyo)
Composed by: ぺぽよ (Pepoyo)
Upload date: 14 August 2021

Requested by: nero
Watch the official video with Miku and VY1 on YouTube
Watch the Miku-only video on YouTube

⚠️ Content warning: Suicide themes ⚠️
Please contact your local mental health hotline if you or someone you know is in crisis.


歌詞

きっと打開策があったはずだと
後悔溢れた1人の部屋で
ずっと戻らない地にいつまでも
着かない鳥を返す夢を見る
一歩進もうと足を踏みだせば
一方引きずられまた繰り返し
縛り付けられ身動き取れず
終わらないテストは0点罰点

過去に潰される未来予想図
崩れたバランスシーソーゲーム
登り下りまで襲う躁鬱
震える足では逃げることすらできなくて

(Miku-only)
未来に掲げたタイムカプセル
汚れた地の底自己流ルール
上から下へのカウントダウン
震える腕では掴むことすらできなくて

単純に限界になって
手遅れになるその前に
感情消して無しにできたら
どんなに良かったか!
甲斐甲斐しいほど快も不快も
しつこく邪魔してくれるんだ
いつまでたっても踏み出せないから
前にも後にも進めない!

今日も明日も停滞したまま
閉じ込められ留まり続ける
無い正解に目を凝らし続け
穴の空いちゃった答案を捨てる
朝も昼にも夜にも怯え
もう動かない身体を眺めて
永遠揺蕩う不安の海で
ただひたすらに終わりを待つだけ

頭の電池は逆さま状態モード
脳から液漏れ発熱破裂
プラスの思考のマイナスイオン
知らなきゃよかった後悔してももう遅く

(Miku-only)
外から聞こえる歪サウンド
わずかな倫理も壊すロジック
マイナス思考のプラスドライバー
逃げ場がないこと分かっていたのにもう遅く

絶対に正解に行けない
無駄な努力を続けても
結果なんて分かりきってる
全部、全部、大失敗!
前科一犯、笑止千万
どうでもいいほどばかばかしい
すっからかんに何をかけても
答えは単純、なにもない!

どうしようもできない過去も
巻き戻せない過ちも
犯した分の罪の数だけ
自分に突き刺すよ
身体に傷をつけてく事で
心の傷が消えるなら
本当は全部0にしたくて
許してほしくって

心を覆うような絶望も
掴みきれない幸せも
受け止めきれず潰れちゃうなら
おしまいにしようか。
人生最後のちんけな部屋を
死に場所にして首吊って
足しても引いても意味がないなら
問題点ごと消せば良いって
安心しながら眠るんだ

(Miku-only)
どうしようもできない過去も
巻き戻せない過ちも
犯した分の罪の数だけ
君に突き刺すんだ
身体に傷をつけてく事で
心の傷も消えるから。
嘘でもいいさ、全部忘れて、
許してあげるから。

(Miku-only)
心を剥ぐような絶望も
与えきれない幸せも
受け止めきれず潰れちゃうなら
おしまいにしようか。
人生最後のちんけな部屋で
壊して殺して引きずって
足しても引いても意味がないなら
問題点ごと消せば良いって
安心できたらよかったな・・・

Romanisation

kitto dakaisaku ga atta hazu da to
koukai afureta hitori no heya de
zutto modoranai chi ni itsu made mo
tsukanai tori o kaesu yume o miru
ippo susumou to ashi o fumidaseba
ippou hikizurare mata kurikaeshi
shibari tsukerare miugoki torezu
owaranai tesuto wa zeroten batten

kako ni tsubusareru mirai yosouzu
kuzureta baransu shiisoo geemu
nobori kudari made osou souutsu
furueru ashi de wa nigeru koto sura dekinakute

(Miku-only)
mirai ni kakageta taimu kapuseru
yogoreta chi no soko jikoryuu ruuru
ue kara shita e no kauntodaun
furueru ude de wa tsukamu koto sura dekinakute

tanjun ni genkai ni natte
teokure ni naru sono mae ni
kanjou keshite nashi ni dekitara
donna ni yokatta ka!
kaigaishii hodo kai mo fukai mo
shitsukoku jama shite kureru nda
itsu made tattemo fumidasenai kara
mae ni mo ato ni mo susumenai!

kyou mo asu mo teitai shita mama
tojikomerare todomari tsudzukeru
nai seikai ni me o korashi tsudzuke
ana no aichatta touan o suteru
asa mo hiro ni mo yoru ni mo obie
mou ugokanai karada o nagamete
eien tayutau fuan no umi de
tada hitasura ni owari o matsu dake

atama no denchi wa sakasama moodo
nou kara ekimore hatsunetsu haretsu
purasu no shikou no mainasu ion
shiranakya yokatta koukai shitemo mou osoku

(Miku-only)
soto kara kikoeru ibitsu saundo
wazuka na ronri mo kowasu rojikku
mainasu shikou no purasu doraibaa
nigeba ga nai koto wakatte ita noni mou osoku

zettai ni seikai ni ikenai
muda nadoryoku o tsudzuketemo
kekka nante wakari kitteru
zenbu, zenbu, daishippai!
zenka ichihan, shoushi senban
dou demo ii hodo bakabakashii
sukkarakan ni nani o kaketemo
kotae wa tanjun, nani mo nai!

doushiyou mo dekinai kako mo
makimodosenai ayamachi mo
okashita bun no tsumi no kazu dake
jibun ni tsukisasu yo
karada ni kizu o tsuketeku koto de
kokoro no kizu ga kieru nara
hontou wa zenbu zero ni shitakute
yurushite hoshikutte

kokoro o oou you na zetsubou mo
tsukamikirenai shiawase mo
uketome kirezu tsuburechau nara
oshimai ni shiyou ka.
jinsei saigo no chinke na heya o
shinibasho ni shite kubi tsutte
tashite mo hiite mo imi ga nai nara
mondaitengoto keseba ii tte
anshin shinagara nemuru nda

(Miku-only)
dou shiyou mo dekinai kako mo
makimodosenai ayamachi mo
okashita bun no tsumi no kazu dake
kimi ni tsukisasu nda
karada ni kizu o tsuketeku koto de
kokoro no kizu mo kieru kara.
yso demo ii sa, zenbu wasurete,
yurushite ageru kara.

(Miku-only)
kokoro o hagu you na zetsubou mo
atae kirenai shiawase mo
uketome kirezu tsuburechau nara
oshimai ni shiyou ka.
jinsei saigo no chinke na heya de
kowashite koroshite hikizutte
tashite mo hiitemo imi ga nai nara
mondaiten goto keseba ii tte
anshin dekitara yokatta na…

Translation

I thought there must have been a way past it
while I was regretful and alone in my room.
I dream of being a bird
that will never land.
I want to take a step forward
but I keep getting dragged the other way.
I’m all tied up
and I score zero on this endless test.

The prophecy is crushed under the weight of the past.
The balance is off-whack in this seesaw game.
Mood swings attack me, rising and falling.
I can’t even run away on my trembling legs.

(Miku-only)
I sent this time capsule to the future.
I follow my own rules in the depths of this corrupted world.
It’s a countdown from top to bottom.
I can’t even grab it with my shaking arms.

How wonderful would it be
if I could erase my emotions
before I simply reach my limits
and it’s too late.
Pleasure and displeasure are getting in my way.
How stubborn, how brave of them!
I can’t move my feet no matter how much time passes
so I can’t go forward or back!

Yesterday and today, things remain stagnant.
I’m shut away and at a standstill.
I keep looking at an answer that doesn’t exist
and throw away test papers with holes in them.
I tremble in fear morning, noon and night.
I look down at my motionless body.
I’ll drift forever in a sea of anxiety
waiting for the end with all my heart.

The batteries in my head are round the wrong way.
Battery fluid leaks from my brain and it explodes.
Negative ions are inside positive thoughts.
I shouldn’t have found out. It’s too late to regret it.

(Miku-only)
I can hear a distorted sound from outside
and logic destroys even the faintest trace of morals.
A Phillips head screwdriver fits into my negative thoughts.
I realised I had nowhere to run, but it’s too late now.

I can’t make my way to the right answer
though I continue in vain.
I know what the result is all too well.
It’s all a massive, massive failure!
My criminal record is laughable
and helplessly foolish.
No matter what you multiply zero by,
you’re gonna get nothing at all!

I can’t do a thing about the past
and I can’t undo my mistakes.
Everything I’ve done wrong
pierces through me.
If the wounds on my heart
will fade by inflicting wounds to my body
then I want to return everything to zero
seeking forgiveness

Despair seems to cover my heart
and I can’t get a hold of happiness.
If I can’t accept them and will be crushed under the weight
then why not end it all?
I decided to make my last, awful room
my place of death. I hung myself.
If there’s no meaning in adding or subtracting
then just erase the entire problem.
I will rest in peace.

(Miku-only)
You can’t do a thing about the past
and you can’t undo your mistakes.
Everything you’ve done wrong
pierces through you.
The wounds on your heart
will fade by inflicting wounds to your body.
Even if it’s all a lie, forget
because I will forgive you.

(Miku-only)
Despair seems to lay your heart bare
and I couldn’t grant you enough happiness.
If you can’t accept them and will be crushed under the weight
then why not end it all?
Here, in this last, awful room
I’ll kill, destroy, and drag it out.
If there’s no meaning in adding or subtracting
then just erase the entire problem.
If only I could be at peace…

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