『居た。』 || “I Was There.”

『居た。』
“ita.”
“I Was There.”

Vocals: 歌愛ユキ (Kaai Yuki), 重音テト (Kasane Teto)
Lyrics: 稲むり (inemuri)
Composed by: 稲むり (inemuri)
Upload date: 19 July 2021

Requested by: Snelly
Watch the official video on YouTube!

Content warning: Suicide themes
Please contact your local mental health hotline if you or someone you know is in crisis.

I originally thought that this track was narrated by the black cat, but now I think it might actually be the sakura, with some parts told from ‘your’ perspective.


歌詞

夕暮れ 街の中で
とても見慣れた 顔を見つけ
そっと 後をつけて
次の居場所は そこにしたよ

気づかれなかったとて 別にいいよ
黒猫がこう問う
「忘れてしまってても?」
別にいいよ いたずらな時の向こう

桜の花が散り 道を覆った
深い意図は持たず 遠巻きの場所から伺って
桜並木の 葉が空を覆った
強い意義を帯びず ただ居たよ

あの日も 昨日も 一昨日も
明日も 明後日も 沈むよ同じ日が
ゆらゆら 窓の下 色ずく夕空
傍にいていいかい?

夜明け テーブルの上
処方箋とか 通帳とか
まめに毎日つける 日記帳だけ
ベールの中?

忘れてしまってたら それがいいね
黒猫がこう言う
「気づかれないのは、もう当たり前だ。さっさと諦めなさい。」

桜の赤い葉が 道を覆った
強い意味を持てず 無いも同じ手じゃ触れないね
貴方がそれを カーテンで覆って
淡い意思のままに 椅子に立ち

それから いつでも いつまでも
明日も 明後日も 失くした ずっと夜だ
きらきら 足の下 輝く星空

「傍にいていいかい?」

Romanisation

yuugure machi no naka de
totemo minareta kao o mitsuke
sotto ato o tsukete
tsugi no ibasho wa soko ni shita yo

kidzukarenakatta tote betsu ni ii yo
kuroneko ga kou tou
“wasurete shimattetemo?”
betsu ni ii yo itazura na toki no mukou

sakura no hana ga chiri michi o ootta
fukai ito wa motazu toomaki no basho kara ukagatte
sakura namiki no ha ga sora o ootta
tsuyoi igi o obizu tada ita yo

ano hi mo kinou mo ototoi mo
ashita mo asatte mo shizumu yo onaji hi ga
yura yura mado no shita irozuku yuuzora
soba ni ite ii kai?

yoake teeburu no ue
shohousen toka tsuuchou toka
mame ni mainichi tsukeru nikkichou dake
beeru no naka?

wasurete shimattetara sore ga ii ne
kuroneko ga kou iu
“kidzukarenai no wa, mou atarimae da. sassa to akiramenasai.”

sakura no akai ha ga michi o ootta
tsuyoi imi o motezu nai mo onaji te ja sawarenai ne
anata ga sore o kaaten de ootte
awai ishi no mama ni isu ni tachi

sore kara itsu demo itsu made mo
ashita mo asatte mo nakushita zutto yoru da
kira kira ashi no shita kagayaku hoshizora

“soba ni ite ii kai?”

Translation

At dusk in the city
I saw a familiar face.
I quietly tailed them,
deciding to be with them next.

It didn’t bother me that I remained unnoticed.
The black cat posed a question:
“What if they forget about you?”
I don’t care. It’ll happen after these idle days.

The cherry blossoms fell and covered the ground.
I came calling from afar without much in mind.
Sakura lined the road. Their leaves covered the sky.
I was just there, without any strong reason to be.

That day, yesterday and the day before that…
Tomorrow, and the day after that, the same sun will set.
It wavers there beneath my window as the evening sky changes colour.
Can I be by your side?

It’s daybreak. Stuff is on my table
like prescriptions and bank books.
I guess the only thing behind the veil is my diary?
I wrote in it every day.

If they forget, that’s okay.
This is what the black cat says:
“Of course nobody will notice. Just give up already.”

The red leaves of the sakura cover the road.
There’s no strong meaning behind it. Invisible hands can’t touch anything.
You closed the curtains on that sight.
Following the faintest of ideas, you stand on the chair.

Ever since then, forever,
I lost my tomorrow and the days after. It will be night forever.
At my feet, a starry sky twinkles.

 “Can I be by your side?”

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