マインドレリーズ || Mind Release

歌詞

息を吸うために閉ざした口
意味もなしに開けて放つのは
心も身を焦がしたって
その火を消し飛ばしてしまいたかったから

じっと間違えていないと
それも飽きてしまって
恥じらいすらなくなって
そこには意味だけだ
間違いなどないと
幾度となく唱えた
逃げ出したい手の鳴る方へ
言葉を飲んで向こうへ伝っていく

愛に塞ぎ込んで
息を溜めていた
何故かいつまでもこう
していたくはないな

泣いていたい僕は彷徨って
痛くても逢いたいなんて聴こえなくて
咲いていた君が散々な
理想を騙って招いたんだ

色彩を拒んだ
結果のこの視界を
疑いもしない今日だ
闇を見据えたまま
果てない行く先に
目を開くことすら
ままならないままただ泣いた
刻んでいた短針が停止して

それでも消えないで
鳴り続けていた
止めどなく響いて
再度針を落とした

浴びる火は痛んでも
揺らいでは戻っていた
残した影に響く音
希望、理想に寄り添う
ひとつ、ひとつに唯酔うような声

“独りにしないで”

愛は迷い、戸惑ってしまったの
咲いていなくても、もういいよ
愛したかったよ、もう一回
でも良いと思えない、最低だ
愛に潜った君の中で
二つの答えを探してる

Romanisation

iki o suu tame ni toazashita kuchi
imi mo nashi ni akete hanatsu no wa
kokoro mo mi o kogashita tte
sono hi o keshitobashite shimaitakatta kara

jitto machigaete inai to
sore mo akite shimatte
hajirai sura nakunatte
soko ni wa imi dake da
machigai nado nai to
ikudo to naku tonaeta
nigedashitai te no naru hou e
kotoba o nonde mukou e tsutawatte iku

ai ni fusagikonde
iki o tamete ita
naze ka itsu made mo kou
shite itaku wa nai na

naite itai boku wa samayotte
itakutemo aitai nante kikoenakute
saite ita kimi ga sanzan na
risou o katatte maneita nda

shikisai o kobanda
kekka no kono shikai o
utagai mo shinai kyou da
yami o misueta mama
hate nai yukusaki ni
me o hiraku koto sura
mama naranai mama tada naita
kizande ita tanshin ga teishi shite

sore demo kienaide
naritsudzukete ita
tomedo naku hibiite
saido hari o otoshita

abiru hi wa itandemo
yuraide wa modotte ita
nokoshita kage ni hibiku oto
kibou, risou ni yorisou
hitotsu, hitotsu ni tada you you na koe

“hitori ni shinaide”

ai wa mayoi, tomadotte shimatta no
saite inakutemo, mou ii yo
aishitakatta yo, mou ikkai
demo ii to omoenai, saitei da
ai ni mogutta kimi no naka de
futatsu no kotae o sagashiteru

Translation

I closed my mouth to hold my breath.
I opened it and exhaled
because my body and spirit were burning
and I wanted to blow out the flame.

If I’m not firmly right
then I’ll get tired of it.
Even my shyness will vanish
and that’s the only thing with meaning.
I insisted so many times
that I wasn’t wrong.
I want to run away towards the clapping.
I swallow my words and pass them along.

I brooded in love
and held my breath.
It’s always like this
but that’s not how I want it.

I want to cry, and I’m lost.
I couldn’t hear you saying you wanted to see me, even if it hurt.
Your smile opened like a flower. How cruel.
You beckoned, swindling my ideals.

After rejecting colour
there are now no doubts
in sight.
I look straight at the darkness
at my endless path.
I can’t even open my eyes.
I just cried, with things not going how I wanted them to.
The hour hand was ticking, but now it’s stopped.

But don’t disappear.
Those words kept ringing,
echoing endlessly.
I dropped the needle again.

Though the flames that bathed me hurt
they flickered and returned to life.
A sound echoes in the shadow left behind.
I snuggle up to my hopes and ideals
counting them out, one by one, with a drunken voice.

“Don’t leave me alone.”

I was lost in love and bewildered.
Even if I don’t bloom, I don’t care anymore.
I wanted to love you one more time
but it didn’t seem good. It was the worst.
I submerged into love inside you
to search for two answers.