カルメン || Carmen

カルメンを踊る私は
成れないよ。偽物
その迷いが未熟者
ランウェイを進む勇気が
足りないの見透かす
「貴方にはまだ早い」

「ねえ、ママ。
次のバースデイは
人生の意味を語る本と
鍵のかかる部屋が欲しい」
ああ、まだ
口をポカンとして
餌を待つように
嘘は着飾るように

返して、私の尊厳を返して
ただずっと自由なバースデイ
まで待てるわけないね、離して
どうして？進めと言うんだ
五線譜の上は
今日も変わりない青空

カルメンを踊る私は
成れないよ。偽物
その迷いが未熟者
ランウェイを進む勇気が
足りないの見透かす
「貴方にはまだ早い」

「かくいう私は箱入り娘」
それは言い訳に過ぎないぜ
誰かがくれた不協和音に
他の誰かは救えないね
「結局、私は所詮口だけ」
それは勇敢な第一歩
見る前に飛べ
せめてその牙を研げ

カルメンを踊る私は
成れないよ。偽物
その迷いが未熟者
ランウェイを進む勇気が
足りないの見透かす
「貴方にはまだ早い」

私は今すぐ

Karumen o odoru watashi wa
Narenai yo. nisemono
Sono mayoi ga mijukumono
Ran’uei o susumu yuuki ga
Tarinai no misukasu
“Anata ni wa mada hayai”

“Nee, mama.
Tsugi no baasudei wa
Jinsei no imi o kataru hon to
Kagi no kakaru heya ga hoshii”
Aa, mada
Kuchi o pokan to shite
Esa o matsu you ni
Uso wa kikazaru you ni

Kaeshite, watashi no songen o kaeshite
Tada zutto jiyuu na baasudei
Made materu wake nai ne, hanashite
Doushite? susume to iu nda
Gosenfu no ue wa
Kyou mo kawarinai aozora

Karumen o odoru watashi wa
Narenai yo. nisemono
Sono mayoi ga mijukumono
Ranwei o susumu yuuki ga
Tarinai no misukasu
“Anata ni wa mada hayai”

“Kakuyuu watashi wa hakoiri musume”
Sore wa iiwake ni suginai ze
Dareka ga kureta fukyouwaon ni
Hoka no dareka wa sukuenai ne
“Kekkyoku, watashi wa shosen kuchi dake”
Sore wa yuukan na daiippou
Miru mae ni tobe
Semete sono kiba o toge

Karumen o odoru watashi wa
Narenai yo. nisemono
Sono mayoi ga mijukumono
Ranwei o susumu yuuki ga
Tarinai no misukasu
“Anata ni wa mada hayai”

Watashi wa ima sugu

I, who dance Carmen
am unfit for the role. I’m a fake.
Those are the doubts of a novice.
They’ll all see that I don’t have the courage
to head down the runway.
“It’s still too early for you.”

“Hey, mum.
For my next birthday
I want a book about the meaning of life
and room with a lock on it.”
Ah, things haven’t changed.
My mouth is wide open
like waiting for food,
like dressing up a lie.

Give it back, give me back my dignity.
There’s no way I’ll just wait
for a birthday when I’m free. Let me go.
Why? You tell me to keep going.
The same blue sky
is there above the stave today.

I, who dance Carmen
am unfit for the role. I’m a fake.
Those are the doubts of a novice.
They’ll all see that I don’t have the courage
to head down the runway.
“It’s still too early for you.”

“And so, I am the ingenue.”
That’s nothing but an excuse.
With the discord that someone gave you
you can’t save someone else.
“In the end, I’m all talk.”
That’s the first brave step.
Leap before you look
but at the very least, sharpen your fangs.

I, who dance Carmen
am unfit for the role. I’m a fake.
Those are the doubts of a novice.
They’ll all see that I don’t have the courage
to head down the runway.
“It’s still too early for you.”

I’ll go at once.