オートファジー
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Autophagy
Vocals: flower
Lyrics: 柊キライ (Hiiragi Kirai)
Composed by: 柊キライ (Hiiragi Kirai)
Upload date: 19 August 2019
Requested by: taringtajam + Innomi
Watch the official video on YouTube!
Update (14 June 2020): Further updates to improve accuracy (無理矢理). Thank you for the comments, Tackmyn!
Autophagy literally means ‘self-eating’, but it looks like it’s how cells in the body remove unwanted or damaged components.
Miyashita Yuu also covered this song (link to cover version).
歌詞
愚かしいとか 馬鹿らしい そんなことを僕の前で試行しないで
言葉にしては苛まれ 囚われては被害者振ることも出来ないから
穏やかに暮らしてほしい
ハロー はははは ハロー ははははは
脳内案内人 そう かわった人ね
ハロー はははは ハロー ははははは
止めどない もう なかったことに
ただただ 心を突き放し しっし 蝕みの時 霧 海鳴り 光
僕は待ってないのに踊られても困るし君 君
過去の孤独の問いに身 脈打ち苦しい 寄らないでよ
ハロー
なかったことに
ハロー
わかった頃に
ハロー
愚かしいとか 馬鹿らしい そんなことを僕の前で口にしないで
「生きてく上で避けられず 割り切るしか」 そう言うあなたは困ってなさそう
脳髄から締め出したくて
アロー ああああ アロー あああああ
到来 難題に問う 無駄なことは？
アロー ああああ アロー あああああ
止まらない 振り返らない
アロー
忘れさせて
ハロー はははは ハロー ははははは
脳内案内人 そう かわった人ね
ハロー はははは ハロー ははははは
止めどない もう なかったことに
これから心が宿った頭蓋 無理矢理隅まですすいで洗いたい バイバイしたい
僕はやってないのに騒がれても鬱陶しい しっし
今脆くも生きてる日々に 愚かに憂い 消えたいと願う
ただただ 心を突き放し しっし 蝕みの時 霧 海鳴り 光
僕は待ってないのに踊られても困るし君 君
過去の孤独の問いに身 脈打ち苦しい 寄らないでよ
今に弾ける悪の芽よ
ハロー
なかったことに
ハロー
わかった頃に
ハロー
Romanisation
orokashii toka bakarashii sonna koto o boku no mae de shikou shinaide
kotoba ni shite wa sainamare torawarete wa higaisha furu koto mo dekinai kara
odayaka ni kurashite hoshii
haroo ha ha ha ha haroo ha ha ha ha ha
nounai annainin sou kawatta hito ne
haroo ha ha ha ha haroo ha ha ha ha ha
tomedo nai mou nakatta koto ni
tada tada kokoro o tsukihanashi shishhi mushibami no toki kiri uminari hikari
boku wa mattenai noni odoraretemo komaru shi kimi kimi
kako no kodoku no toi ni mi myakuuchi kurushii yoranaide yo
haroo
nakatta koto ni
haroo
wakatta koro ni
haroo
orokashii toka bakarashii sonna koto o boku no mae de kuchi ni shinaide
“ikiteku ue de sakerarezu warikiru shika” sou iu anata wa komatte nasasou
nouzui kara shimedashitakute
aroo aaaa aroo aaaaa
tourai nandai ni tou muda na koto wa?
aroo aaaa aroo aaaaa
tomaranai furikaeranai
aroo
wasuresasete
haroo ha ha ha ha haroo ha ha ha ha ha
nounai annainin sou kawatta hito ne
haroo ha ha ha ha haroo ha ha ha ha ha
tomedo nai mou nakatta koto ni
kore kara kokoro ga yadotta zugai muriyari sumi made susuide araitai bai bai shitai
boku wa yattenai noni sawagaretemo uttoushii shisshi
ima morokumo ikiteru hibi ni oroka ni urei kietai to negau
tada tada kokoro o tsukihanashi shishhi mushibami no toki kiri uminari hikari
boku wa mattenai noni odoraretemo komaru shi kimi kimi
kako no kodoku no toi ni mi myakuuchi kurushii yoranaide yo
ima ni hikeru aku no me yo
haroo
nakatta koto ni
haroo
wakatta koro ni
haroo
Translation
How foolish. How absurd. Don’t try out such things in front of me.
I put it into words and am tormented. I can’t play the victim when I’m taken prisoner, after all.
I just want them to live in peace.
Hello! Hahahaha. Hello! Hahahahaha.
An intracerebral guide? Oh, how weird…
Hello! Hahahaha. Hello! Hahahahaha.
It’s endless. Let’s pretend that it never existed.
I just push my heart aside. Shoo! At the time of ruin, the mist, the sound of the sea, and light are there.
I’m not waiting, but your dancing is bothering me!
When faced with questions from my past isolation, my body pulses and hurts. Don’t come near me!
Hello!
Like it never existed—
Hello!
When I realised it—
Hello!
How foolish. How absurd. Don’t say such things in front of me.
“You can’t avoid it while you’re alive. There’s nothing to do but put up with it.” You say that but don’t seem troubled.
I want to lock you out from my brain.
‘Allo. Ahhhh! ‘Allo. Ahhhh! (1)
I ask a difficult question that arrives. What’s futile?
‘Allo. Ahhhh! ‘Allo. Ahhhh!
I won’t end. I won’t look back.
‘Allo.
Let me forget.
Hello! Hahahaha. Hello! Hahahahaha.
An intracerebral guide? Oh, how weird…
Hello! Hahahaha. Hello! Hahahahaha.
It’s endless. Let’s pretend that it never existed.
My heart once dwelled in my skull. I want to forcibly rinse it corner to corner now. I want to say bye.
I didn’t do it, but your fussing is irritating me. Shoo!
I grieved foolishly during days I lived through tender-heartedly. I wished to disappear.
I just push my heart aside. Shoo! At the time of ruin, the mist, the sound of the sea, and light are there.
I’m not waiting, but your dancing is bothering me!
When faced with questions from my past isolation, my body pulses and hurts. Don’t come near me!
O seeds of evil, which will soon burst open!
Hello!
Like it never existed—
Hello!
When I realised it—
Hello!
Translator’s notes
(1) アロー (aroo) is interpreted as ‘allo, a contracted form of ‘hello’, in line with the previous usage of ハロー (haroo, hello) in the song. アロー can also be interpreted as ‘Arrow.’
Releska 
‘Allo! I’ve just made karaoke subtitles of a cover for this song using your translated lyrics:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MocFx3guTb4
I had to make some minor adjustments of the English lyrics to match the karaoke. Specifically, I changed “Ahhhh!” to “Ah ah ah ah ah”. I hope that’s okay.
Also, the lines “tada tada kokoro o tsukihanashi shishhi mushibami no toki kiri uminari” is missing “hikari” at the end.
Anyway, thanks for making these translated subtitles! I’d also appreciate giving the video a watch since I worked hard on it. The Eminem lines were a real headache.
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Thank you for your comment and for the subtitles! I like the red text and shadowing effect, it gives it a lot of flair.
I’ve also updated the romanisation to include ‘hikari’. Thanks for spotting that! And for something like ‘ah’ it’s okay if you change it around (^_^)
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Just another suggestion from me: 無理矢理 is not “knowing it’s impossible.” It is completely different from 無理 (which means “impossible” for sure). I guess it’s more like… “forcibly” or “by force.” cf. 彼は無理矢理ドアをこじ開けた。 / 彼女は無理矢理白状させられた。
And, I noticed this just now but, you put “II didn’t do it”… I mean, a typo. You have to remove an I. That’s all. (*^-^)
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Thanks for that! In the absence of an editor I really appreciate it when people let me know when there are typos. I’m always updating my proofreading rituals to make sure those sorts of typos don’t make it through but some will inevitable show up (^_^);
I see your point about 無理矢理 relating to doing something ‘by force’, and that’s something that was lost when I translated it as “knowing it’s impossible.” I focused on the first part of the definition in my dictionary: /無理と知りながら/強引に物事を行うさま。
I felt that translating it as ‘forcibly’ implies that, at some point, the speaker will be able to rinse it clean, but I don’t know if that’s the case. For example, in the second example you raised I would interpret it as something like “[Even though she knew it wouldn’t work out], she was made to confess.”
I’ll think about it some more. Once again, I appreciate your insight into these things!!
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Ahh true, 明鏡国語辞典 does say 無理と知りながら! Hmm, I guess it depends. For example, a sentence 彼は無理矢理ドアをこじ開けた。sounds natural to me, and I feel the sentence implies that ‘he’ managed to open the door in the end (yet he had some trouble with it) so actually it wasn’t impossible. Well, to rinse the skull corner to corner is impossible indeed…
And, I recommend you to look up 無理 in your dictionary. I guess there are 3 instances: ①unreasonable, ②difficult; impossible, ③forcible; excessive(I guess 〘自サ変〙 means 無理(を)する). It’s certain that I come up with “impossible” first when I try to translate 無理 (especially if it is 形容動詞), but in the case of 無理に / 無理矢理, they are “forcibly” rather than “knowing it’s impossible.” Or, suppose we have a sentence 彼に無理矢理サインさせた。, it can be “knowing it’s unreasonable”… I think “forcibly” works better though.
Weeeell I hesitate to say this but, this suggestion isn’t vital…. just take this as one opinion that would deepen your knowledge.
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Thanks for that extra info! I’ve had another think and a look through my dictionaries, and I agree. I’ve made a change to the sentence with 無理矢理 in it, thanks again! (^_^) I definitely know to be more careful around that in the future
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Hello Releska! I wanted to let you know that over on the Vocaloid Lyrics Wiki a native Japanese speaker has requested that some corrections/edits be made to this translation. We won’t edit it in accordance with your terms, but if you’re interested in revising the translation yourself, their suggestions can be found here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1PmK47C1d3bdSujWOOzypiKroiXq31LhWQqBuGsbcK4Y/edit#heading=h.f1et0oy62prc
I hope you’re doing well, and thank you for all the great work that you do!
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Oh my, that’s me! I forgot to tell you that I already told it to Releska… I’m very sorry to have bothered you.
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Thanks for that, I appreciate you letting me know about that. I made some comments and had a chat with Tackmyn about the lyrics in the Google doc, and I’ve made some updates to the translation to make it more accurate. I got a lot out of it, and will use the comments to be more accurate in future Hiiragi Kirai translations!
Please feel free to update any versions of the translation hosted elsewhere (^_^)
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Hello! I’m Tackmyn, a native Japanese speaker. Well I have some suggestions to you, so come read this https://docs.google.com/document/d/1PmK47C1d3bdSujWOOzypiKroiXq31LhWQqBuGsbcK4Y/edit?usp=sharing if you have time! Thank you!
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Hello! Lovely to meet you (^_^) I’d definitely appreciate any suggestions to bring us closer to the core of the song’s meaning. I’ll have a read through and make some revisions. Thank you so much!
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Just leaving another comment to let you know that I’ve updated the translation based on our discussion. It was great to talk more about the song, and I’ll take your comments on board for future Hiiragi Kirai translations…!
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Wooooo!! It’s finally here! Thank you so much for the translation!! I see you’ve linked Yuu’s cover too.
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Yeah! I love flower’s version but Yui’s cover makes me see the song in a different light too. I love listening to different versions of a single song!!
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Right?! His version is super cool and sort of theatrical!
By the way, I wanted to suggest updating some of your oldest translations, as a special for the blog’s 5th anniversary! Or compiling a top 20 for your favourite translations!
But then again, you have a lot of requests so…I thought it might be a lot of work.
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Thanks for the suggestion! I wanted to do something for my blog’s fifth birthday but I ended up running out of time >_> I have some more milestones coming up next year so… we’ll see 😎
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