蜜を嗜む || A Taste for Nectar

日本語

羨む心と辛抱ばっか　不甲斐ない僕の根性
その戯言を　ちょっと聞いて共感してよ

散々夢を描いて萎えて　何も無い“これまで”ってヤツを嘆いて
変な迷信　ずっと握って

ちょっと泣いたって　何も変わんないし
何も変わんないと　ただの屑らしい
屑になったって　得をしないもんな
ただ無駄に生きている間に　戻れない程曲がり腐ってた

「君の全てが欲しい」
つまらない僕の空箱に　君の才能詰めてしまいたい
「どうしても君が良い」
僕が僕のままで生きても　君と同じ幸せはないだろ？

誰かの不幸が蜜だなんて　思いたくない気持ちの
裏側で少しペロッて　にやついてる

もっと誠実に　人生を捉えたいな
捉えたとこで　何も変わんないけど
変わんないと　諦めた声で
だらしなく描いた理想がさ　この先の道をただ濁してる

「甘い汁を啜りたい」
狡くて凄い奴らだけが　得をしているこんな世界でさ
「甘い蜜を舐めたい」
誰かの不幸を味わって　生きる下衆にはなりたくないけど

最低なんだよ　僕ら鳴り止まないんだ　欲の連鎖
最悪なんだよ　他人の幸福ばっか嫌う十代
全然なんだよ　ただの凡庸だって知って泣いて
舌先、緩やかに痺れてく

「君の全てが欲しい」

「君の全てが欲しい」
降り止まぬ雨と将来に　君の才能差して歩きたい
「幸せになってみたい」
少しでも僕がありのまま　生きる方法を願ったんだよ

Romanisation

uramu kokoro to shinbou bakka fugai nai boku no konjou
sono zaregoto o chotto kiite kyoukan shite yo

sanzan yume o egaite naete nani mo nai “kore made” tte yatsu o nageite
hen na meishin zutto nigitte

chotto naita tte nani mo kawannai shi
nani mo kawannai to tada no kuzu rashii
kuzu ni natta tte toku o shinai mon na
tada muda ni ikite iru aida ni modorenai hodo magari kusatteta

“kimi no subete ga hoshii”
tsumaranai boku no karabako ni kimi no sainou tsumete shimaitai
“dou shitemo kimi ga ii”
boku ga boku no mama de ikitemo kimi to onaji shiawase wa nai daro?

dareka no fukou ga mitsu da nante omitakunai kimochi no
uragawa de sukoshi pero tte niyatsuiteru

motto seijitsu ni jinsei o toraetai na
toraeta toko de nani mo kawannai kedo
kawannai to akirameta koe de
darashinaku egaita risou ga sa kono saki no michi o tada nigoshiteru

“amai shiru o susuritai”
zurukute sugoi yatsura dake ga toku o shite iru konna sekai de sa
“amai mitsu o nametai”
dareka no fukou o ajiwatte ikiru gesu ni wa naritakunai kedo

saitei nan da yo bokura nari yamanai nda yoku no rensa
saiaku nan da yo hito no koufuku bakka kirau juudai
zenzen nan da yo tada no bon’you da tte shitte naite
shitasaki, yuruyaka ni shibireteku

“kimi no subete ga hoshii”

“kimi no subete ga hoshii”
furi yamanu ame to shourai ni kimi no sainou sashite arukitai
“shiawase ni natte mitai”
sukoshi demo boku ga ari no mama ikiru houhou o negatta ndayo

Translation

I’m a disappointment. My willpower is nothing but an envying heart and patience.
Listen to that nonsense for a bit and have some sympathy!

I grieved for the fools who dreamed harsh dreams and wasted away, speaking empty words like “that’s enough!”
I held my weird superstitions tightly the whole time.

Nothing will change by just crying a bit.
If nothing changes, I’m like ordinary trash.
If I become trash, I won’t gain a thing.
While living a useless life, I grew so twisted and rotten I couldn’t turn back.

“I want your everything.”
I want to stuff all your talent into my boring, empty box.
“You’re great, no matter what.”
Even if I live as I am now, I won’t be as happy as you, will I?

Someone’s misfortune is nectar. I didn’t want to think that
but hidden beneath, I licked my lips and smirked.

I want to grasp life more sincerely
though when I do, nothing will change.
I say nothing will change with a resigned voice
and the ideals I sloppily imagined just muddy the path ahead.

“I want to sip up that sweet juice.”
In this world, only the sly and awful get anything.
“I want to lick that sweet nectar,”
but I don’t want to become a lowlife living while tasting others’ misfortune.

We’re awful. We won’t stop ringing the chains of lust.
We’re the worst. Us teens do nothing but hate the happiness of others.
That’s not it at all. We know we’re just mediocre and we cry.
The tip of my tongue slowly gets numb.

“I want your everything.”

“I want your everything.”
I want to walk into the endless rain and my future holding your talent like an umbrella.
“I want to try being happy.”
I was wishing for a way to live while being myself, even just a little.