遺書とチーズケーキ || Suicide Note and Cheesecake

遺書とチーズケーキ
isho to chiizukeeki
Suicide Note and Cheesecake

Vocals: 蒼姫ラピス (Aoki Lapis), メルリ (Merli)
Lyrics: でんの子p (Dennoko-P)
Composed by: でんの子p (Dennoko-P)
Upload date: 6 April 2015

Requested by: squash
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⚠️Content warning: Suicide themes⚠️
Please contact your local mental health hotline if you or someone you know is in crisis.


歌詞

RAINBOW 走馬燈
高速高速 MEMORY
揺れ続ける 思い思い思い思い思い思い思い思い思い
CHAOS 未来いらない
RUIN 嫌いじゃない
SUGARLESS 生は 重い重い重い重い重い重い重い
停滞 TEATIME以来
SUNSHINE 眩しい
ひたすら眠って いたいいたいいたいいたいいたいいたいいたい
夢 夢想 SLAVE
即席処刑台 DIVE
それでも血は 痛い痛い痛い痛い痛い痛い痛い

神様、
教えて、
天国に
甘い
チーズケーキは
ありますか?
教えて、
熱い紅茶は
ありますか?
それとも、

向き合えないGOODNIGHT
努力 情熱 BYE-BYE
空見上げて CRYCRYCRYCRYCRYCRYCRY
ANYWAY すべて水泡
消息不明期待
天気予報さえ 暗い暗い暗い暗い暗い暗い暗い

神様、
教えて、
天国に
甘い
チーズケーキは
ありますか?
教えて、
熱い紅茶は
ありますか?
それとも、

たまにゃ思いっきり泣かなきゃならない
かっこ悪いのはお互い様よ
生きる阿保に首吊る阿保
同じ阿保なら生きなきゃ 損損

泣いても笑っても生きなきゃならない
わかっちゃいるけどいじけたくなる
七回転んだら八回寝よう
完璧な人にゃなれない なれない

だから
たまにゃ思いっきり吐かなきゃならない
みっともないのはお互い様よ
生きる阿保に首吊る阿保
同じ阿保なら生きなきゃ 損損

Romanisation

RAINBOW soumatou
kousoku kousoku MEMORY
yuretsuzukeru omoi omoi omoi omoi omoi omoi omoi omoi omoi
CHAOS mirai iranai
RUIN kirai ja nai
SUGARLESS sei wa omoi omoi omoi omoi omoi omoi omoi
teitai TEATIME irai
SUNSHINE mabushii
hitasura nemutte itai itai itai itai itai itai itai
yume musou SLAVE
sokuseki shokeidai DIVE
soredemo chi wa itai itai itai itai itai itai itai

kamisama,
oshiete,
tengoku ni
amai
chiizu keeki wa
arimasu ka?
oshiete,
atsui koucha wa
arimasu ka?
soretomo,

mukiaenai GOODNIGHT
doryoku jounetsu BYE-BYE
sora miagete CRYCRYCRYCRYCRYCRYCRY
ANYWAY subete suihou
shousoku fumei kitai
tenki yohou sae kurai kurai kurai kurai kurai kurai kurai

kamisama,
oshiete,
tengoku ni
amai
chiizu keeki wa
arimasu ka?
oshiete,
atsui koucha wa
arimasu ka?
soretomo,

tamanya omoikkiri nakanakya naranai
kakko warui no wa otagaisama yo
ikiru aho ni kubi tsuru aho
onaji ahonara ikinakya sonson

naite mo waratte mo ikinakya naranai
wakaccha iru kedo ijiketaku naru
nana kai korondara hachi kai neyou
kanpeki na hito nya narenai narenai

dakara
tamanya omoikkiri hakanakya naranai
mittomonai no wa otagaisama yo
ikiru aho ni kubi tsuru aho
onaji aho nara ikinakya sonson

Translation

RAINBOW revolving lantern.
High-speed MEMORY.
Flickering thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts.
CHAOS. I don’t need that future.
RUIN. I don’t care.
SUGARLESS life is so heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy.
Since stagnant TEATIME
the SUNSHINE has been so radiant.
I focus on sleeping, or at least I want to, want to, want to, want to.
I’m a SLAVE to dreams and visions.
I DIVE straight to the gallows
and yet my blood aches, aches, aches, aches.

God,
tell me,
is there
sweet
cheesecake
in Heaven?
Tell me,
is there
hot tea?
Or perhaps…

We can’t face each other. GOODNIGHT.
Effort, passion, BYE-BYE.
I look up at the sky and CRYCRYCRYCRYCRYCRYCRY.
ANYWAY, it’s all meaningless.
My hopes are gone without a trace.
Even the weather forecast is dark, dark, dark, dark.

God,
tell me,
is there
sweet
cheesecake
in Heaven?
Tell me,
is there
hot tea?
Or perhaps…

Sometimes you’ve just gotta cry your heart out.
We’ll both look uncool!
Whether it’s the fools who live or the fools who hang,
they’re both fools so you’ve gotta stay alive! It’s a waste.

Whether you laugh or cry, you’ve gotta stay alive.
I get it, but I lose my nerve.
Let’s keep sleeping when we fall. (1)
I can’t be perfect. I can’t.

And so
sometimes you’ve just gotta spit it all out.
We’ll both look disgraceful.
Whether it’s the fools who live or the fools who hang,
they’re both fools so you’ve gotta stay alive! It’s a waste.


Translator’s note

(1) The phrase used here, which literally means ‘fall over seven times, go to sleep eight times’ is an inversion of the set phrase 七転び八起き (fall seven times, rise eight times, or rise when you fall).

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