夢々 || Dreams

何かを 探していた筈だが
ずっと思い出せない
見知った顔も
今日もテールランプを追うばかり

流れに沿っている様な感覚
冷たいコンクリートの道 急いで
墓碑銘みたいな壁と壁
行き場所を失った信号の光
狂えるならいい 見透かして

愛罪に酔っている君と
悴みつつあった心に さめざめと月夜の光
遠くなるランドマーク
仕方ないと割り切った様で

縛られたままの体に
心房から強制的に送られる命
冷たいな でも
避けてしまえばいい
ああ そうしてしまったら
いつ 本心で泣くことができるだろう

街が色合いを変えていく
もうどうしようもない 手遅れ
ああ 僕が消えた場所には
青い花が枯れている
これくらいはできるだろう
あれならばやれるだろう と
侮ったように挑んだ事が
背後から忍び寄って
髄を折ろうとする

高速で離れてく景色が
対角を狙った翼に 愛憎と月夜の闇で
研ぎ澄まされた爪と牙
仕方ないと吐き捨てた様で

縛られたままの心で
肺を満たし強制的に届けられる命
凍えてる でも
飛び立ってしまえばいい
ああ そうしてしまったら
いつ 本心を謂う事ができるだろう

(どうすることもできなかった。
後悔の念が波となって押し寄せ、私の足は砂に埋もれた。
鋭く光る瞳が私を見つめる。
その翼が、私を桃源郷へ連れて行ってくれたらと思う。)

愛罪を 欲しがってる君は
広まりつつあった領域に 溜め込んだ月夜を溶かす
遠くなる姿は
一歩ずつ 歩き出すようで

縛られたままの体に
心房から強制的に送られる命
冷たいな でも
飲み込んでしまえばいい
ああ そうしてしまえば
また 夢だけ曖昧にできるだろう。

夢と同化して
夢の中まで。

Nanika o sagashite ita hazu da ga
Zutto omoidasenai
Mishitta kao mo
Kyou mo teeru ranpu o ou bakari

Nagare ni sotte iru you na kankaku
Tsumetai konkuriito no michi isoide
Bohimei mitai na kabe to kabe
Ikibasho o ushinatta shingou no hikari
Kurueru nara ii misukashite

Aizai ni yotte iru kimi to
Kajikami tsutsu atta kokoro ni samezame to tsukiyo no hikari
Tooku naru randomaaku
Shikata nai to warikitta you de

Shibarareta mama no karada ni
Shinbou kara kyousei-teki ni okurareru inochi
Tsumetai na demo
Sakete shimaeba ii
Aa sou shite shimattara
Itsu honshin de naku koto ga dekiru darou

Machi ga iroai o kaete iku
Mou dou shiyou mo nai teokure
Aa boku ga kieta basho ni wa
Aoi hana ga karete iru
Kore kurai wa dekiru darou
Are naraba yareru darou to
Anadotta you ni idonda koto ga
Haigo kara shinobiyotte
Zui o orou to suru

Kousoku de hanareteku keshiki ga
Taikaku o neratta tsubasa ni aizou to tsukiyo no yami de
Togisumasareta tsume to kiba
Shikata nai to hakisuteta you de

Shibarareta mama no kokoro de
Hai o mitashi kyouseiteki ni todokerareru inochi
Kogoeteru demo
Tobitatte shimaeba ii
Aa sou shite shimattara
Itsu honshin o iu koto ga dekiru darou

(Dou suru koto mo dekinakatta.
Koukai no nen ga nami to natte oshiyose, watashi no ashi wa suna ni umoreta.
Surudoku hikaru hitomi ga watashi o mitsumeru.
Sono tsubasa ga, watashi o tougenkyou e tsurete itte kuretara to omou.)

Aizai o hoshigatteru kimi wa
Hiromari tsutsu atta ryouiki ni tamekonda tsukiyo o tokasu
Tooku naru sugata wa
Ippo zutsu arukidasu you de

Shibarareta mama no karada ni
Shinbou kara kyousei-teki ni okurareru inochi
Tsumetai na demo
Nomikonde shimaeba ii
Aa sou shite shimaeba
Mata yume dake aimai ni dekiru darou.

Yume to douka shite
Yume no naka made.

I was meant to be searching for something
but I couldn’t remember what it was.
It’s another day
of chasing taillights and familiar faces.

It feels like I’m going with the flow
hurrying along a cold concrete path
surrounded by tombstone-like walls
and the light from traffic signals with nowhere to go.
I should just lose my mind and see right through it all.

The beams of the moonlit night
fell like tears upon you, drunk on sinful love, and my numb heart.
The landmark gets further and further away.
It’s as if I’ve decided I can’t change anything.

Life is forced through me from my heart’s chambers
in a body that remains bound.
It’s so cold
but I should just avoid it.
Ah, if I did that
then I wonder when I’d be able to cry for real.

The streets change colour.
It’s too late, I can’t stop it.
Ah, at the place where I disappeared
blue flowers are withering.
I guess this is all I can do.
If I was like them, then I could do it.
Underestimating someone and laying down the challenge
leads to them creeping up from behind
trying to break your bones.

The landscape gets further away at high speed.
With diagonally-aimed wings, and love and hate in the dark of a moonlit night
claws and fangs were sharpened.
It’s like I spat those words out: I had no choice.

Life is forcefully delivered, filling my lungs
from a heart that remains bound.
I’m frozen
but I should just take to the skies.
Ah, if I did that
then I wonder when I’d be able to speak my mind.

“There was nothing I could do about it.
Regret washed over me in waves, burying my feet in the sand.
Sharp, glowing eyes stared at me.
I wish those wings would take me to an ideal world.”

You, craving sinful love
dissolve the moonlit nights hoarded in an ever-expanding domain.
Your figure, which gets further and further away
seems to start walking, step by step.

Life is forced through me from my heart’s chambers
while my body remains bound.
It’s so cold
but I should just drink it all up.
Ah, if I did that
then I wonder if I could keep my dreams uncertain again, at least.

I join with the dream.
I head inside the dream.