長き夢の果て || At the End of a Long Dream

rdwl-0025長き夢の果て
nagaki yume no hate
At the End of a Long Dream

Vocals: nayuta
Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Arranged by: RD-Sounds
Album: Omoi (音) 【Official Site】
Circle: Diao ye zong (凋叶棕)
Event: C92
Original themes: Omiwa Legend [大神神話伝]

Requested by: Nishikawa Keiko

(非公式の)英訳だけです。申し訳ありません。

This is only a short song, but a lot of heavy images and concepts are crammed into it. I won’t talk too much about it here, but it seems to be heavily linked to Futo’s backstory. Does this song, like others from this album, deal with lost memories? If so, what memories has Futo lost?

It was a little while ago now, but I received some excellent comments regarding 忘らるる物語 || A Forgettable Tale from this album! Reading everyone’s interpretations made me appreciate the song on a whole new level, so feel free to write your own interpretation in the comments!


I look up at the sky, and in the distance
You sink into a heat haze. (1)

Perhaps you saw it, too—
You uncertain beings
Who violated your birth and your blood unawares. (2)

While fighting, clinging to illusions of old gods, (3)
That whole illusion shall be cast to the flames! Be burned, all together!

If my flowing blood burns brilliantly,
Then do even my outstretched body and hands burn, too?

This trembling. This numbness. What do I fear?

I peer into the earth’s darkness.
After many nights, my corpse begins its journey.

Perhaps you see nothing—
You uncertain beings,
Reward those feelings, which darkened your eyes, and sleep.

At the sleeve of a new god, my purpose
Is to become kindling for the flames that will someday illuminate them.

If it is the fate for shed blood to cease and fade away,
Then perhaps that is also beautiful. If my spirit could but go up in flames…

A long dream. A vanishing dream. I am not afraid.

As descendants of the gods, we will but pursue their shadow.
If so, we will forget our status and depart on a journey far, far away.


(1) Though the kanji 殿 is written, あなた (‘you’) is sung. The kanji is used as a form of honorific (especially when referring to a feudal lord), and can also refer to a mausoleum.
(2) At several points in this song, もの (mono – person/thing) is written in katakana (モノ). It is possible that this refers to Futo’s clan name, Mononobe, especially in cases like this, where it is linked to blood [モノの血 would become ‘The blood of Mono(nobe)]
(3) 幻想 (gensou – illusions) is written, but おもい (omoi – feelings, etc.) is sung. One’s interpretation of this stanza could change based on how they interpret the album title.

emergence

rdwl-0025emergence

Vocals: Meramipop (めらみぽっぷ)
Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Arranged by: RD-Sounds
Album: Omoi (音) 【Official Site】
Circle: Diao ye zong (凋叶棕)
Event: C92
Original themes: –Dichromatic Lotus Butterfly ~ Red and White [二色蓮花蝶 ~ Red and White]
Eastern Mystical Love Consultation [東方妖恋談]

Requested by: Petalite Yuu

英訳だけです。申し訳ありません。

Update [Sept. 7, 2017]: Minor adjustments made

I don’t really want to spoil too much up here, so I’ll place my own personal interpretation of this song in the comments. I’d love to hear your thoughts, too!


Now
What should I think?
I feel a clear sensation remaining in my arms.

I look at that thing, fragilely crumbling away.
Did I see something inside myself alongside it?

If only I could remain as a simple young girl…
But once those wings have emerged, they’re almost like a curse.

My body grows lighter.
It’s as if I’m forgetting
About something important…

…Surely, I am ignorant of all but this way of life
If so, I hope I will not grow to loathe ‘this.’

…I’ll never beg for forgiveness, so I’ll never forgive anyone. Ah…

I’ll just stay strong and dignified.

Now,
I wonder what you’re thinking,
Though your eyes say “why me?”

The person
Whom you look at
Asks the same question.

I never wished for or wanted for anything…
So does this mean something has been stolen from me? I don’t know that either, do I?

“Never beg for forgiveness”
“So never forgive anyone.”
“Just be strong, so strong”
“For as long as you bear this name.”

The self that I wish for is not me, for I am right here.
But is this all I am? Who am I…?

I’ll forget all about
Those answerless questions.
After all, nobody else has the answer.

…So, I’ll be ignorant of all but this way of life
So I will not grow to loathe ‘this.’

Somewhere deep inside my heart
I cast something aside once more.
My heart grows lighter as I cast everything away…

…And thus, I will fly through the sky without being tied down by anything else!
Even if, say, I forget about what my tears mean.

…I’ll just be strong, so strong, as long as I bear this name. Ah…

Yes, I’ll just stay strong and dignified

嘔吐、又。 || I Vomit, Again.

rdwl-0025嘔吐、又。
outo, mata.
I Vomit, Again.

Vocals: nayuta
Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Arranged by: RD-Sounds
Album: Omoi (音) 【Official Site】
Circle: Diao ye zong (凋叶棕)
Event: C92
Original theme: Rigid Paradise [リジッドパラダイス]

英訳だけです。申し訳ありません。

I think nayuta always puts so much emotion into her performances when she sings for RD. This track is no different. This time, it’s Yoshika who’s forgotten about something. Presumably, it’s her past as the famous poet Miyako no Yoshika. I think the song feels like it should be told entirely from Yoshika’s point of view, but some parts seem to suggest that someone else is talking about her (referring to her as an object – それ). Punctuation is also specifically marked out in sections, and this translation prioritises that punctuation. It’s meant to feel a little unnatural.

Also, the Japanese title is pronounced ‘automata.’ I can only assume that that is intentional, so feel free to call this song ‘Automata’ instead.

Translation notes are limited to where there are direct quotations from classical poetry. Like usual, there are some Diao-ye-zongisms, but preference is always given to what is sung, defaulting back to the written lyrics when the sung words are hard to decipher.

The parts in bold aren’t clearly written in the booklet, so some liberties have been taken.


I force my purposeless corpse along.
And each time, again. Something crumbles away.

When the orders given to me come to an end,
Each time, again. I just become trash once more.

No meaning rests within me.
I don’t even know who I am.

A faint obsession remains, leaving me with
An unquenchable thirst.
Is that the reason why my corpse is stirred up?

And, again.
My organs shouldn’t be able to produce anything.
Still, they fasten together something inside me…

Each time there’s a pause in my unclear orders, again.
Time and time again,
—I stand still. I stand still. I stand still. I stand still.

The weather… clears…
And a breeze… blows among… the young willows… (1)


It flows… forth…
Though nobody knows… from whence… it came…
When… it dries up…
The depths… will surely… be visible… (2)

It’s a mish-mash of disconnected signals
But all of them, again. Can’t even plan anything.

Why do I seem to search for something?
It’s all, again. Just a type of orientation.

Words accumulate chaotically.
My memories will never return.

Even until my last breath,
I will search forever,
Seeking to take back something I lost.

And, again.
If this is a way
For me to fill in that unfillable void…

Each time I feel an obscure sign, again.
Time and time again,
—I devour. I devour. I devour. I devour.

Who… are you? Me. Who… am I? Me. I am…. I will… I am…

Thus, again.
I am a pitiful automaton, without a will of my own.
My gluttony, which I cannot withstand, continues.

Each time my imperfect flow goes too far, again.
Time and time again,
I vomit. I vomit. I vomit. I vomit.


(1) This is an extract from one of Miyako no Yoshika’s poems. The quote is as follows:
気霽れては風新柳の
kiharete wa kaze shinryuu no
The full poem can be read here.
(2) This is another extract. The quote is as follows [涙川 is omitted]:
流れいづる  方だに見えぬ  [涙川]  おきひむ時や  底は知られむ
nagare izuru katada ni mienu okihimu toki ya soko wa shiraremu

忘らるる物語 || A Forgettable Tale

rdwl-0025忘らるる物語
wasuraruru monogatari
A Forgettable Tale

Vocals: Meramipop (めらみぽっぷ)
Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Arranged by: RD-Sounds
Album: Omoi (音) 【Official Site】
Circle: Diao ye zong (凋叶棕)
Event: C92
Original theme: Japanese Saga [ジャパニーズサーガ]

Requested by: Petalite Yuu

英訳だけです。申し訳ありません。

Just a side note: you should read/listen to ‘An Unforgettable Tale’ [忘れえぬ物語] before having a look at this song. I’ll link to Kafka-Fuura’s translation – here it is.

Anyway, there’s a lot to say about this one, but I’ll try to keep it short. I like to avoid spoiling the content of the song in the introduction, because I think it’s important to read the lyrics and think about them first. To that end, my own personal interpretation (influenced by a number of different sources) is present as a comment beneath this post. It’s not necessarily the only or the correct interpretation, so if you’d like, please read it and leave your own interpretations, too! I’d love to look at other translations as well, since there’s so much hidden away in this song. This is only scratching the surface.

There are the usual Diao ye zong-isms to watch out for, too. Words that have been omitted from the booklet are coloured white – highlight them to read them. Blue words appear in the booklet with 音 (sound) somewhere in them. One word is written as 心 (heart/spirit), indicated in pink.

This character (憶) is key. It appears to be pronounced ‘omoi’. To that end, I think an accurate translation of the album’s title is ‘Memories.’


A multitude of meanings
Are confined within a single word.

In the same way, a single memory
Is never identical.

Upon understanding a single one,
The world will not grow any wider.

Instead, after memorising one,
It will only grow that much narrower.

I remember.
I remember your visage.
But… is that really you?

All I remember is a heartless illusion that must just exist inside me…

Surely, no matter how many stories there are, even if you were closer to me than anyone else…
I cannot varnish over it all with just a single word—‘love.’

Only a beautiful, unforgettable tale remains…

Though you may try
To harbour a single memory,

That memory
Will gradually fade.

I suppose it’s frustrating.
I guess it’s irritating.
I suppose you cannot fight it, can you?

If you forgot about your heart, then nobody would know.

You say you’ll never forget about me, but you will change someday.
If so, then a single phrase—‘love’—will seem to tie everything up halfheartedly, like that.

After all, humans will forget…

I remember your voice.
I remember your eyes.
I remember your touch.
I remember it all. Everything. But, ah…

One of them by itself
Just isn’t you!
It’s nothing but a fragment of a story
About you, sometime, somewhere.

If that’s the case
Then I’d rather forget all about you!
But still, no matter what I do,
That’s the one thing… that I cannot… ah…!

Your memories are not eternal, so you learn things anew.
If only I could forget about you, relegate you to a single word—“love.”

If I could forget about you…

I want to know you forever, as part of a memory I will someday forget.
Please… I want to forget all about you with a single word—“love.”