かみさまがきえたひ || The Day God Disappeared

歌詞

水底深く暗い場所まで
眠る為に沈んでゆくの
誰にも見つけられないように
そっと瞳閉ざした造り物の神

どれほど人をまね　　近付こうとしても
まだ呼吸の仕方さえわからないよ

愛しても　　愛しても　　偽者でしかない
感情じゃ君のこと縫い止められなくて
“ありがとう”　と背を向けて歩き出す姿が
見えなくなるまで立ち尽くしていた

どこまでも続く平行線
理解されることも叶わず
孤独を独り占めするように抱いて
耳を塞いだ紛い物の神

身勝手に生み出され　　身勝手に消されてゆく
憤ることに疲れ過ぎた

その虚構が幸せだと思い込んでいる
盲目で不器用な愛し方の君と
途方も無い回数の邂逅を果たして
一つでも本物にできるなら

壊れ物を触るように
大切にするだけが優しさじゃない
傷つけることを恐れないで
僕が間違えば罰して欲しいだけ

何よりも愛しくて厭わしい君への
贈るべき言葉などもうどこにも無いよ
繰り返し始めてもまた同じ軌跡を
歩みたいと君が望んだから

Romanisation

minazoko fukaku kurai basho made
nemuru tame ni shizunde yuku no
dare ni mo mitsukerarenai you ni
sotto hitomi tozashita tsukuri mono no kami

dorehodo hito wo mane chikazukou toshite mo
mada kokyuu no shikata sae wakaranai yo

aishite mo aishite mo nisemono de shika nai
kanjou ja kimi no koto nui tomerarenakute
“arigatou” to se wo mukete aruki dasu sugata ga
mienakunaru made tachitsukushite ita

doko made mo tsuzuku heikousen
rikai sareru koto mo kanawazu
kodoku wo hitorijime suru you ni daite
mimi wo fusaida magaimono no kami

migatte ni umidasare migatte ni kesarete yuku
ikidooru koto ni tsukaresugita

sono kyokou ga shiawase da to omoikonde iru
moumoku de bukiyou na aishi kata no kimi to
tohou mo nai kaisuu no kaikou wo hatashite
hitotsu demo honmono ni dekiru nara

kowaremono wo sawaru you ni
taisetsu ni suru dake ga yasashisa ja nai
kizutsukeru koto wo osorenai de
boku ga machigaeba basshite hoshii dake

nani yori mo itoshikute itowashii kimi e no
okurubeki kotoba nado mou doko ni mo nai yo
kurikaeshi hajimete mo mata onaji kiseki wo
ayumitai to kimi ga nozonda kara

Translation

I sank to a deep dark place
At the bottom of the ocean.
I did it so I could sleep, and so nobody could find me.
Gently, I closed my eyes. I am a false god…

No matter how much I pretend to be human, and try to grow close to them,
I still don’t even know how to breathe.

No matter how much I love, I am just an imposter.
I couldn’t sew you up with feelings.
“Thank you” you said. I stood still until I could no longer see you
As you turned your back and walked away.

The parallel lines continue without end,
Without being understood.
The false god plugged her ears
And held her isolation so she could have it all to herself.

Born from selfishness, fading away into selfishness…
She was too tired from her resentment.

Thinking that my fiction was happiness,
I went through countless chance meetings with you
With your blind, clumsy way of loving.
If I could make even one of them real…

It isn’t kindness at all to look after fragile things
Just so you can touch them!
I don’t want to be afraid of hurting you –
I just want you to punish me if I make a mistake.

There are no more words I must say to you,
Who I find so disagreeable, yet who I love more than anything else,
Because you wished to walk down the same path
Even if you repeated it from the beginning.