Releska

Cranberry Head

Vocals: CHERICa
Lyrics: Souutsu Torako (躁鬱とらこ)
Arranged by: MUZIK SERVANT
Album: Insane Adversary 【Official Site】
Circle: OTOMEKAN (音召缶)
Event: C83
Original Theme: U.N. Owen Was Her? [U.N.オーエンは彼女なのか？]

Requested by: 中原ほたる

I feel like this track is about someone losing their innocence. Perhaps they kill someone close to them. It’s quite open-ended, either way.

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幼い憧れが　高いところから落ちるように
終りの始まりを加速させゆくパトス

osanai akogare ga takai tokoro kara ochiru you ni
owari no hajimari wo kasoku sase yuku patosu

Pathos speeds up the beginning of the end
So my childish longing will fall from a high place.

不機嫌な恋人は爪を立て喚く
頁には書いてある「知ることは罪」と
ひび割れたエンドロール　巻き戻せなくて
俯いて手放せば逆再生する

fukigen na koibito wa tsume wo tate wameku
peeji ni wa kaite aru ‘shiru koto wa tsumi’ to
hibiwareta endorooru maki modosenakute
utsumuite tebanaseba gyaku saisei suru

The sullen lover sharpens their claws and screams.
“Knowing is a sin” is written upon the page.
The credits roll is cracked. It can’t be wound back now
But when I look down and stop working, it comes back to life.

いつかここを飛び立つだろう
消えたピースを繋げて　全て見えた真実と想い
裏腹に熱く

itsuka koko wo tobitatsu darou
kieta piisu wo tsunagete subete mieta shinjitsu to omoi
urahara ni atsuku

I wonder if I’ll fly away from here someday…
I tied together the vanished pieces and all truth and love could be seen.
Beneath the surface, they were intense.

未来が無いとして　永遠の証明をするのなら
誓いに指を折る
あなたを逃がさない、と
幼い憧れが高いところから落ちるように
終りの始まりを　加速させゆくパトス

mirai ga nai to shite eien no shoumei wo suru no nara
chikai ni yubi wo oru
anata wo nigasanai, to
osanai akogare ga takai tokoro kara ochiru you ni
owari no hajimari wo kasoku sase yuku patosu

If there is no future, and if I will provide proof of eternity,
Then I will count my vows on my fingers:
“I won’t let you go.”
Pathos speeds up the beginning of the end
So my childish longing will fall from a high place.

不機嫌な真実の果実　歪む顔噛んで
割れるように鳴り響く警鐘を聴いて

fukigen na shinjitsu no mi yugamu kao kande
wareru you ni narihibiku keishou wo kiite

A twisted face gnaws at the fruit of sullen truth.
They hear alarm bells piercing through the air.

どうせすぐ壊すなら  このままでいい、と
諦めたような眼ね
それもまたいいわ

douse sugu kowasu nara kono mama de ii, to
akirameta you na me ne
sore mo mata ii wa

“If I’m just gonna break it, then it’s fine like this.” You think.
That look—you’ve given up
But that’s okay, too.

冷たい床に頬をあてて  眠れない夜  数えてた
今を生きる証がほしい
痛みをあげるわ

tsumetai yuka ni hoho wo atete nemurenai yo kazoeteta
ima wo ikiru akashi ga hoshii
itami wo ageru wa

I rested my cheek against my cool bed during a sleepless night. I counted.
I want proof that I’m alive.
I’ll give you pain…

この手で掴まえて　あなたの首を撃ち落としたい
もう二度と戻れない過ちならば
「すぐに」
醒めきった傷跡  涙さえ出ないエンドロール
裁きや罪咎は、私に届かない

kono te de tsukamaete anata no kubi wo uchioto shitai
mou nido to modorenai ayamachi naraba
‘sugu ni’
same kitta kizuato namida sae denai endorooru
sabaki ya tsumitoga wa, watashi ni todokanai

I want to catch you with these hands and lop off your head.
If I can’t turn back from this mistake…
“At once.”
This credits roll is a scar from waking up. I can’t even cry.
Judgement and sin won’t reach me.

はじめての恋　優しい記憶
いつかこうして
こわして

hajimete no koi yasashii kioku
itsuka kou shite
kowashite

My first love, my tender memories—
Someday, like this,
I will break them.

神様がもし　ここにいるなら
私、背を押し
やみへ
おとす

kamisama ga moshi koko ni iru nara
watashi, se wo oshi
yami e
otosu

God, if you’re here…
Then I’ll push you,
Casting you
Into the darkness

私の銃声で

watashi no juusei de

With a gunshot.

幼い憧れが　高いところから落ちるように
終りの始まりを加速させゆくパトス
醒めきった傷跡　涙さえ出ないエンドロール
裁きや罪咎は、私に届かないよ

osanai akogare ga takai tokoro kara ochiru you ni
owari no hajimari wo kasoku sase yuku patosu
same kitta kizuato namida sae denai endorooru
sabaki ya tsumitoga wa, watashi ni todokanai yo

Pathos speeds up the beginning of the end
So my childish longing will fall from a high place.
This credits roll is a scar from waking up. I can’t even cry.
Judgement and sin won’t reach me.

切り裂き描いてる
未来が無いとして
私の銃声で終りの幕を引く

kirisaki egaiteru
mirai ga nai to shite
watashi no juusei de owari no maku wo hiku

I’ll draw a scene of carnage.
If there’s no future,
Then I’ll pull the curtains with a gunshot.