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歌詞

10年ちょっとの思い出　少年なら大人になって
好きなものなんて　変わり果ててしまったんだ

ああしょうがない　才能あったって足りないって
もどかしい心　嫌いだ

懐かしいサリシ日々の思い出　心変わりじゃ満たされないね
新時代の幕だけ開いて　その席だけはずっと虚(から)になっているんだ

今も胸のどこかで帰りを待ってるわ

夢をまた見させてくれるなら
もう一度　その歌声を
この心臓　めがけて飛び込んでいってくれ
まだ覚めないまま

それでも貴方はふわりと消えて
どこまでも行くと　きっと答えを待っても
忘れてしまわぬようにと　ここを出よう

人の成りして歩んで来た
殴り書きした　文字は色褪せぬまま
おさがりの会話で着飾っては
君の望む君になんてなれなかったわ

泣いて　情けない姿を晒して
立派な大人になんて
なれなくてごめんなさいね

格好悪いね　待って
神に見放されては
今日も祈ってるわ

優しさの隣に君が居たからまた笑ってみせた
本当はただ　どうしようもない人生　抗えないまま

わかりあいたいのに傷つけあって　独りになるのなら
ずっと黙って待っていよう
せめて人らしく泣いていよう
からっぽなまま

貴方の眼差しに踵を返す
臆病者だけど　最低な日々すら僕は肯定したくて
取り戻したいから

夢をまた見させてくれるなら
もう一度　その歌声を
この心臓　めがけて飛び込んでいってくれ
まだ覚めないまま

それでも貴方はふわりと消えて
どこまでも行くと　きっと答えを待っても
忘れてしまわぬようにと　ここを出よう

Romanisation

juu-nen chotto no omoide shounen nara otona ni natte
suki na mono nante kawari hatete shimatta nda

aa shou ga nai sainou atta tte tarinai tte
modokashii kokoro kirai da

natsukashii sarishi hibi no omoide kokorogawari ja mitasarenai ne
shinjidai no maku dake hiraite sono seki dake wa zutto kara ni natte iru nda

ima mo mune no dokoka de kaeri o matteru wa

yume o mata misasete kureru nara
mou ichido sono utagoe o
kono shinzou megakete tobikonde itte kure
mada samenai mama

sore demo anata wa fuwari to kiete
doko made mo iku to kitto kotae o mattemo
wasurete shimawanu you ni to koko o deyou

hito no nari shite ayunde kita
nagurikaki shita moji wa iroasenu mama
osagari no kaiwa de kikazatte wa
kimi no nozomu kimi ni nante narenakatta wa

naite nasakenai sugata o sarashite
rippa na otona ni nante
narenakute gomennasai ne

kakko warui ne matte
kami ni mihanasarete wa
kyou mo inotteru wa

yasashisa no tonari ni kimi ga ita kara mata waratte miseta
hontou wa tada dou shiyou mo nai jinsei aragaenai mama

wakari aitai noni kizutsuke atte hitori ni naru no nara
zutto damatte matte iyou
semete hito-rashiku naite iyou
karappo na mama

anata no manazashi ni kibisu o kaesu
okubyoumono dakedo saitei na hibi sura boku wa koutei shitakute
torimodoshitai kara

yume o mata misasete kureru nara
mou ichido sono utagoe o
kono shinzou megakete tobikonde itte kure
mada samenai mama

sore demo anata wa fuwari to kiete
doko made mo iku to kitto kotae o mattemo
wasurete shimawanu you ni to koko o deyou

Translation

Memories from about 10 years ago—I grow from a boy to an adult
and my tastes have changed completely.

Ah, I can’t do anything about it. I have talents but they’re not enough.
I hate this frustration.

My memories are of nostalgic days gone by. I won’t be satisfied through changing my mind.
I’ll open only the curtains of the new era, and only that seat will remain empty forever.

Even now, I await their return somewhere in my heart.

If you’ll let me dream once again
then sing once more.
Aim at my heart and take flight for me.
I still can’t wake up.

Still, you vanished so gently.
Though an answer may be waiting when I get there, no matter how far,
I’ll leave this place so I won’t forget.

I attained humanity and walked here.
Those scrawled letters remain unfaded.
All dressed up in hand-me-down conversations
there’s no way you could become who you wanted to be.

I cry, exposing my misery to all.
I’m so sorry
for being unable to become a splendid adult.

How uncool. Hold on,
I’m praying again today
for God to desert me.

Because you were right there beside kindness, I put on a laugh for you again
but really, I couldn’t fight against my helpless life.

I want us to understand each other, but if I’m going to end up alone after we hurt each other
then I’ll stay silent and wait forever.
I’ll cry like an ordinary person, at least,
while I remain hollow.

I turn heel on your gaze.
I’m a coward but I want to see the positive in even the worst of days
because I want to regain what I’ve lost.

If you’ll let me dream once again
then sing once more.
Aim at my heart and take flight for me.
I still can’t wake up.

Still, you vanished so gently.
Though an answer may be waiting when I get there, no matter how far,
I’ll leave this place so I won’t forget.