メタファー塗れで戯れたまま || While Playing, Covered in Metaphors

日本語

閉塞感 我こそがまさに
「はい、そうです」 独り言の権化
自らを辱める声を 封じた先に行きついた部屋

いいんです いいんです
それなら断ってしまえば
ちょうだい ちょうだい
こんなはずじゃなかったのに

ぎゅっと握るその拳の中 ぱっと開くと何もなかった
確かに持ってたはずなんだ 道を示すコンパスだった
ちょっとそこの人お尋ねします さっき大事なものを落として
言いかけた時 驚いて去ってしまった ねえなんで
怪物を見るような目でした

忘れ物をしたあの日に 割れた鏡に映った君
我を失い奪った銭 鍍金に塗れた木片だった
残ったのはひとつだけ 残ったのは喪失感

返して 返して
後悔してるのです
許して 許して
こんなはずじゃなかったのに

麻酔とも言って差し支えない
毎晩惨状
とてもとてもそれだけじゃ
誤魔化せないねと日々増やされて

ふっと覗いた姿見の中の 頭上には王冠があった
ああ またおかしなものを見た
目を覚ませば壊れてしまう
ちょっとそこの人お尋ねします さっき大事なものを落として
言いかけた時驚いて 去ってしまう肩を掴む
怪物のようなことをした

Romanisation

heisokukan ware koso ga masa ni
“hai, sou desu” hitorigoto no gonge
mizukara o hazukashimeru koe o fuujita saki ni ikitsuita heya

ii ndesu ii ndesu
sore nara kotowatte shimaeba
choudai choudai
konna hazu ja nakatta noni

gyutto nigiru sono kobushi no naka patto hiraku to nani mo nakatta
tashika ni motteta hazu nanda michi o shimesu konpasu datta
chotto soko no hito otazuneshimasu sakki daiji na mono to otoshite
iikaketa toki odoroite satte shimatta nee nande
kaibutsu o miru you na me deshita

wasuremono o shita ano hi ni wareta kagami ni utsutta kimi
ware o ushinai ubatta zeni tokin ni nureta mokuhen datta
nokotta no wa hitotsu dake nokotta no wa soushitsukan

kaeshite kaeshite
koukai shiteru no desu
yurushite yurushite
konna hazu ja nakatta noni

masui to mo itte sashitsukaenai
maiban sanjou
totemo totemo sore dake ja
gomakasenai ne to hibi fuyasarete

futto nozoita sugatami no naka no zujou ni wa oukan ga atta
aa mata okashi na mono o mita
me o samaseba kowarete shimau
chotto soko no hito otazune shimasu sakki daiji na mono o otoshite
iikaketa toki odoroite satte shimau kata o tsukamu
kaibutsu no you na koto o shita

Translation

Feeling trapped? That’s exactly how I feel.
“Yes, that’s right,” this is the embodiment of a monologue.
They arrived at that room before sealing away the voice shaming themselves.

It’s fine. It’s fine.
In that case, what if I refuse.
Gimme, gimme!
It wasn’t meant to be like this.

When I opened my tightly clenched fist, there was nothing there.
I definitely had a compass to show the way.
I’ll ask that person over there, “I dropped something valuable just now.”
I started to speak and they were startled and went away. C’mon, why?
Their eyes were those of someone looking at a monster.

The day I lost it, you were there reflected in the broken mirror.
I forgot myself and stole that small change. It was a splinter covered in gold plating.
Only one was left over. Only a sense of loss was left.

Give it back, give it back.
I feel bad about it now.
Forgive me, forgive me.
It wasn’t meant to be like this.

They said it was anaesthetic, and I didn’t object.
Night after night, it’s the scene of a disaster.
One cannot simply be deceived
with just that alone. It was increased daily.

I suddenly looked at the mirror, and there was a crown on my head.
Ah, I’ve seen something weird again.
When I wake up, I’ll go mad.
I’ll ask that person over there, “I dropped something valuable just now.”
I started to speak and they were startled. I grabbed at their shoulder as they went away
and did something monstrous.