自己採点 || Self-Marking

Album art.
Album art.

自己採点
jiko saiten
Self-Marking

Vocals: そらる (Soraru)
Lyrics: syudou
Composed by: syudou
Album: ゆめをきかせて [Official site]
Release date: 29 September 2021

Requested by: monomonopierrot
Watch the official video on YouTube!


歌詞

キンコン鳴る4時20分の
音で猛ダッシュ決めてたんだろ
40人弱の価値観に唾を吐いたんだ

東京ではつまらないモノも
面白い様なフリしてんだろ
共感するための音楽に用はないんだった

誰のせいとかじゃ別にないけど
思うほど世間は馬鹿じゃない
だから図に乗るな けど我を貫け
謙虚な態度が命取りになんだ

悲しくはない 苦しくもない
憐れむな先輩 金輪際
分かっていないのはアンタの方
正しさの根幹目につけて
世間じゃ笑って煽っとるが
これ無しじゃきっと狂っちゃうよ
干支が回ってバトってる今
オマエを救ってんのは全て
オマエが描いた夢だ全て

18までに得た偏見と
持ってる先天で生きてくんだぜ
本当に気高くあるのは
オマエの方だった

確かに俺より長く生きてるし
見習う点も少なくないけれど
美意識は無く んでその割に
昨日言った言葉だって
奴らすぐに忘れるんだ

123

正しくはない 間違っちゃいない
青さや矛盾と踊ってんだ
尖っていたいとは思っていない
ただ鋭利と営利天秤にかけて
ふとした風情にも泣いてしまう
涙味 青春 しょっぱいよ
思春期は大志の断末魔
それでも捨てきれないモンは
染み入って落ちん汚れの様だ

放課後 不条理 校舎 ゴミ掃除
常時向き合った半端な自分
雨は止むのかな 僕は何になるのかな
日差しに焦げたノートのフレーバー
僕の胸を掴んで止まない
嗚呼 それもいつか

美しくない 整っていない
百万すら承知でやってんだ
擦ってる文句を敢えて言おう
「正しさは全部君の中に」

悲しくはない 苦しくもない
憐れむな先輩 金輪際
分かっていないのはアンタの方
正しさの根幹目につけて
世間じゃ笑って煽っとるが
これ無しじゃきっと狂っちゃうよ
干支が回ってバトってる今
オマエを救ってんのは全て
オマエが描いた夢だ全て

それはまさに手の中に

Romanisation

kin kon naru yo yoji nijuppun no
oto de mou dasshu kimeteta ndaro
yonjuunin-jaku no kachikan ni tsuba o haita nda

toukyou de wa tsumaranai mono mo
omoshiroi you na furi shite ndaro
kyoukan suru tame no ongaku ni you wa nai ndatta

dare no sei to ka ja betsu ni nai kedo
omou hodo seken wa baka ja nai
dakara zu ni noru na kedo ga o tsuranuke
kenkyo na taido ga inochitori ni nanda

kanashiku wa nai kurushiku mo nai
awaremu na senpai konrinzai
wakatte inai no wa anta no hou
tadashisa no konkan me ni tsukete
seken ja waratte aottoru ga
kore nashi ja kitto kurucchau yo
eto ga mawatte batotteru ima
omae o sukutten no wa subete
omae ga egaita yume da subete

juuhachi made ni eta henken to
motteru senten de ikiteku ndaze
hontou ni kedakaku aru no wa
omae no hou datta

tashika ni ore yori nagaku ikiteru shi
minarau ten mo sukunaku nai keredo
biishiki wa naku nde sono wari ni
kinou itta kotoba datte
yatsura sugu ni wasureru nda

123

tadashiku wa nai machigaccha inai
aosa ya mujun to odotte nda
togatte itai to wa omotte inai
tada eiri to eiri tenbin ni kakete
futo shita fuzei ni mo naite shimau
namida-aji seishun shoppai yo
shishunki wa taishi no danmatsuma
sore demo sute kirenai mon wa
shimi itte ochin yogore no you da

houkago fujouri kousha gomi souji
jouji mukiatta hanpa na jibun
ame wa yamu no kana boku wa nani ni naru no kana
hizashi ni kogeta nooto no fureeba
boku no mune o tsukande yamanai
aa sore mo itsuka

utsukushiku nai totonotte inai
hyakuman sura shouchi de yatte nda
sutteru monku o aete iou
“tadashisa wa zenbu kimi no naka ni”

kanashiku wa nai kurushiku mo nai
awaremu na senpai konrinzai
wakatte inai no wa anta no hou
tadashisa no konkan me ni tsukete
seken ja waratte aottoru ga
kore nashi ja kitto kurucchau yo
eto ga mawatte batotteru ima
omae o sukutten no wa subete
omae ga egaita yume da subete

sore wa masa ni te no naka ni

Translation

Every day, I made a run for it
as soon as the bell rang at 4:20.
I spat on around 40 people’s values.

In Tokyo, they act like boring things
are actually interesting.
I don’t need music that’s the same as everything else.

It’s not really anyone’s fault
but the world’s not that stupid
so don’t get carried away. Still, stick to your beliefs.
Modesty is fatal.

I’m not sad. I don’t hurt.
Don’t pity me, senpai. Never.
You’re the one who doesn’t get it.
I keep an eye on the core of what’s right.
The world may laugh and stir me up
but without this, I’ll go mad.
The Chinese Zodiac cycles and battles.
Saving you means everything,
including all the dreams you had.

I’m gonna live with what’s in my DNA
and the prejudices I gained before 18.
The one who’s really sublime
is you.

They’ve lived longer than me, for sure
and there’s a lot I can learn from them
but they’ve got no eye for beauty
and those guys just forget
what they said yesterday.

123

It’s not right. It’s not wrong.
I danced with inexperience and contradictions.
I don’t think I want to sharpen up.
I just weigh up keenness and commercialisation
and cry at the unexpected results.
Youth tastes like tears. It’s so salty.
Puberty is the death agony of ambition.
And yet, the things I can’t quite throw away
seep in, like a stain.

After school. Irrational. The school building. Clean-up duty.
I faced my incomplete self 24/7.
Will the rain stop? What will I become?
This is the flavour of my notebook, burnt by the sun.
It won’t stop gripping my heart.
Ah, someday…

I’m not beautiful. Everything’s not in place.
I did everything knowing I was one among a million.
I’ll speak my mind about the things that annoy me.
“What’s right is inside you.”

I’m not sad. I don’t hurt.
Don’t pity me, senpai. Never.
You’re the one who doesn’t get it.
I keep an eye on the core of what’s right.
The world may laugh and stir me up
but without this, I’ll go mad.
The Chinese Zodiac cycles and battles.
Saving you means everything,
including all the dreams you had.

To think, it’s right there in my hands.

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