ヒトリ || Alone

ヒトリ
hitori
Alone

Vocals: flower
Lyrics: しとお (Shitoo)
Composed by: しとお (Shitoo)
Upload date: 24 February 2020

Requested by: Wit + Innomi
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Update (11 June 2020): Minor adjustments based on comments by Tackmyn. Thank you!


あなたと居ると反吐が出る
何もかもが嫌になる
苦しい悲しいことばっか
あなたと居ると反吐が出る

anata to iru to hedo ga deru
nani mo kamo ga iya ni naru
kurushii kanashii koto bakka
anata to iru to hedo ga deru

I feel nauseous when I’m with you
and I get fed up with everything.
Nothing but painful, sad things happen.
I feel nauseous when I’m with you

あなたを見ると眩暈がする
誰も彼も歪んでく
苦しい悲しいことばっか
あなたを見ると眩暈がする

anata o miru to memai ga suru
daremo kare mo yugandeku
kurushii kanashii koto bakka
anata o miru to memai ga suru

When I look at you, I get dizzy
and everyone goes blurry.
Nothing but painful, sad things happen.
When I look at you, I get dizzy.

私の心が飛んで跳ねてまた沈む
仲直りすれば元通り
「あなたが好き」に元通り

watashi no kokoro ga tonde hanete mata shizumu
nakanaori sureba motodoori
“anata ga suki” ni motodoori

My heart leaps up then sinks again.
When we make up, things go back to normal.
“I love you.” That’s what things go back to.

でも もう辞めにしよう 終わらせよう
意味のないループを繰り返す
あなたのいない世界なら
余程生きやすいでしょう
辞めにしよう 終わらせよう
どうせ あなたにとって私は

demo mou yame ni shiyou owaraseyou
imi no nai ruupu o kurikaesu
anata no inai sekai nara
yohodo iki yasui deshou
yame ni shiyou owaraseyou
douse anata ni totte watashi wa

But, let’s stop. Let’s put an end to it.
We’re just going through a meaningless loop.
Perhaps a world without you
would be so easy to live in.
Let’s stop. Let’s put an end to it.
Anyhow, in your mind, I am

ただの一人

tada no hitori    

just one of many.

あなたの笑みが煩わしい
醜い自分が嫌になる
苦しい悲しいことばっか
あなたの笑みが煩わしい

anata no emi ga wazurawashii
minikui jibun ga iya ni naru
kurushii kanashii koto bakka
anata no emi ga wazurawashii

Your smile is so annoying
and I start hating my ugly self.
Nothing but painful, sad things happen.
Your smile is so annoying.

気持ちが悪い 愛も恋も 馬鹿らしい
独りになれば元通り
「あなたが好き」って元通り

kimochi ga warui ai mo koi mo bakarashii
hitori ni nareba motodoori
“anata ga suki” tte motodoori

How disgusting. Love and romance are idiotic.
When I’m alone, things go back to normal.
“I love you.” With those words, things go back to normal.

もう辞めにしよう 終わらせよう
意味のないループを繰り返す
あなたのいない世界なら
余程生きやすいでしょう
辞めにしよう 終わらせよう
どうせ あなたにとって私は

mou yame ni shiyou owaraseyou
imi no nai ruupu o kurikaesu
anata no inai sekai nara
yohodo iki yasui deshou
yame ni shiyou owaraseyou
douse anata ni totte watashi wa

But, let’s stop. Let’s put an end to it.
We’re just going through a meaningless loop.
Perhaps a world without you
would be so easy to live in.
Let’s stop. Let’s put an end to it.
Anyhow, in your mind, I am

ただの一人

tada no hitori    

just one of many.

でも もう辞めにしよう 終わらせよう
意味のないことばっかりだった
あなたのいない世界なら
孤独でしかないでしょう
辞めにして終わらせて
私にとってあなたは

demo mou yame ni shiyou owaraseyou
imi no nai koto bakkari datta
anata no inai sekai nara
kodoku de shika nai deshou
yame ni shite owarasete
watashi ni totte anata wa

But, let’s stop. Let’s put an end to it.
We just did the same meaningless things over and over.
Perhaps a world without you
is a place I could only live alone in.
I’ll stop and put an end to it
even though, in my mind, you were

たった一人だったのに

tatta hitori datta no ni

my one and only.

6 thoughts on “ヒトリ || Alone

  1. Tackmyn Y. June 10, 2020 / 12:29 am

    Just passing comments here. 「あなたが好き」に元通り is maybe… oh, how do I put it? Like,「things go back to “I love you.”」? Well anyways, if it was 「“I love you.” With those words, things go back to normal,」 the original line would be 「あなたが好き」*で*元通り.
    And, I don’t think 一人 in this song always means “alone”… Regarding どうせ あなたにとって私は ただの一人, I feel it’s more like “Anyhow, to you, I am just one person” — like saying that “I” am nothing more than one of “your” friends, or “I” am not everything to “you” — does it make sense?
    Golly, I’m not able make English as well as I used to…

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    • Releska June 10, 2020 / 7:58 pm

      Thanks for the comment, and don’t worry about the English, it’s great and all makes sense to me (^_^)

      I appreciate your suggestion for 「あなたが好き」に元通り – that clarifies things and I’ve updated the line.

      Do you think we should treat 「あなたが好き」って元通り in the same way? My first instinct is to interpret it as 「あなたが好き」と言って元通りになる…

      I had a think about your second point, and I had a go at changing it to “just one of many” in those cases. ‘Of many’ isn’t strictly there in the original text, but I feel that it conveys exactly what you suggested – ‘you’ and ‘I’ are not particularly special, they’re just one person.

      Putting that aside, I always appreciate your comments and insight! It’s especially helpful when you indicate what the translation would look like translated back into Japanese, it helps deepen my understanding of grammar, etc.

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      • Tackmyn Y. June 10, 2020 / 11:40 pm

        I appreciate the revisions! And thank you so much for your kind words. Luckily my head is quite clear today.
        Regarding 「あなたが好き」って元通り, there’s no need to change it, I guess your interpretation is right!
        And, pardon me commenting again(I forgot to say this yesterday), but about the final line たった一人だったのに, I don’t think it’s “just one of many”… boy, this is why Japanese is difficult yet profound! I feel ひとり of that line is like… “you are the only one to me,” or I say, “one and only”? In my opinion, the protagonist thinks that ‘you’ are irreplaceable to ‘me’ whereas ‘I’ am just one of many to ‘you’… What a contrast. Does it make sense? ひとり has too many meanings in Japanese, doesn’t it?
        Plus, I have one more thing to say: perhaps you have to distinguish the translation of 意味のないことばっかりだった from the one of 意味のないループを繰り返す.
        Except those lines, your translation is very good! I always learn a lot from this website, such as English expressions I’ve never known and some novel ways to paraphrase… thank you so much!

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        • Releska June 11, 2020 / 7:07 pm

          You’re welcome! I get what you’re saying about たった一人だった, and I tried to bring that nuance across this time. I think ‘my one and only’ captures that, so I went along with it.

          I fixed up 意味のないことばっかりだった too. That was a miss on my part – the beginning part matched the earlier section with ‘loop’, so I accidentally kept it the same T_T

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  2. Wit June 11, 2020 / 6:52 pm

    This is late, but thank you so much for this translation! It’s really made me appreciate the song even more and your translation (along with Tackmyn’s points) makes a really clear story! ^^

    In my opinion, the song really details how complex relationships with people can be, especially when people have separate views on it. With your translation, it seems like the protagonist doesn’t like being with this “you” because it makes them feel nauseous, dizzy, and “everyone [else] gets blurry”. At least, it feels this way and they don’t want to continue feeling like this, although they are at conflict because another side of them will still value this “you”. But no matter how much the protagonist values the “you” they’re alone in the sense that they are the only one to think this way. They alone find this person irreplacable whilst the “you” has many other people to take up that place. – – > hence the reason why they want to end the cycle of feeling unappreciated even though they know that things will go back to “I love you.” Even if the “I love you’d” of the two aren’t quite the same.

    This is just my take on it, though. ^^ Thank you once again for such a great translation!

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    • Releska June 11, 2020 / 7:12 pm

      You’re welcome! I made a few more adjustments to the translation, I think they further solidify your reading of it (especially now the distinction between the speaker and their beloved’s feelings is much clearer).

      I think it’s interesting that Shitoo has focused so much on the physical reaction felt by the speaker when they’re around their beloved. It makes the pain and complexity of unrequited or unequal love feel so much more real…

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