Billy

Vocals: flower
Lyrics: 大沼パセリ (Oonuma Paseri)
Composed by: 大沼パセリ (Oonuma Paseri) 
Upload Date: 20 June 2019

Requested by: PerfectPastelBlue
Watch the official video on YouTube!

ぼんやり続く日和
彼女の笑顔は見ないな
モノクロフィルムの中
彼の笑顔が寂しく見えた

bon’yari tsudzuku hiyori
kanojo no egao wa minai na
monokuro firumu no naka
kare no egao ga sabishiku mieta

Days of fine weather continued carelessly.
I can’t see her smile…
In the black-and-white film
his smile seemed sad.

微睡み涼んでいたら
あの頃の景色が見えたよ
胸騒ぎの目覚めだ
不意に目から雫が溢れる

madoromi suzunde itara
ano koro no keshiki ga mieta yo
mune sawagi no mezame da
fui ni me kara shizuku ga afureru

After dozing and cooling off
I could see a scene from those days.
I awoke feeling uneasy.
Unconsciously, tears flowed from my eyes.

何もかも薄っぺらくなるようで
色々遮断してみたけれど
ふざけんなふざけんなって
遣る瀬無くなる

nani mo kamo usupperaku naru you de
iroiro shadan shite mita keredo
fuzakenna fuzakenna tte
yarusenaku naru

Everything seemed to become so shallow
and though I tried to isolate various things
I thought “damn it, damn it all!”
and I became so miserable.

幸福ってなんだろう
僕は一ミリでも
それに近づけていたのかな
わからない
なあ教えて

koufuku tte nan darou
boku wa ichi miri demo
sore ni chikadzukete ita no kana
wakaranai
naa oshiete

What is happiness?
Even if it’s just 1 millimetre
I wonder if I got a bit closer to it.
I don’t know.
Hey, tell me!

君は宙を舞って
僕は地を這う
それはないって一人置いて
夜風を切りながら

kimi wa chuu o matte
boku wa chi o hau
sore wa nai tte hitori oite
yokaze o kiri nagara

You dance through the air
and I crawl on the ground.
I said “you can’t!” but you left me behind
while cutting through the night breeze.

CUEを出して弾いて
君を歌うよ
離さないでこの気持ちを
夜風を切りながら

CUE o dashite hiite
kimi o utau yo
hanasanide kono kimochi o
yokaze o kiri nagara

I give the cue and play
singing about you.
Don’t let go of this feeling
while cutting through the night breeze.

海辺で見てた花火
有限の思い出夏景色
僕らが見ていた将来像
今はもう笑える
其方はどうだい
生き抜いてるかい
黄昏の宵に自問自答してる

umibe de miteta hanabi
yuugen no omoide natsu keshiki
bokura ga mite ita shouraizou
ima wa mou waraeru
sochira wa dou dai
ikinuiteru kai
tasogare no yoi ni jimon jitou shiteru

I saw fireworks on the beach,
a summer scene from my limited memories.
The vision we saw of the future
is now so laughable.
How are you going?
Are you living through it all?
I wonder to myself in the dusk hours.

君は宙を舞って
僕は地を這う
種を蒔いて見つめ直して
夜風を浴びながら

kimi wa chuu o matte
boku wa chi o hau
tane o maite mitsumenaoshite
yokaze o abi nagara

You dance through the air
and I crawl on the ground.
I sow the seeds and reconsider
while basking in the night breeze.

CUEを出して弾いて
君を歌うよ
思い出してこの記憶を
夜風を切りながら

CUE o dashite hiite
kimi o utau yo
omoidashite kono kioku o
yokaze o kiri nagara

I give the cue and play
singing about you.
I remember
while cutting through the night breeze.

宙を舞って待って
僕は地を這う
それはないって一人置いて
夜風を切りながら

chuu o matte matte
boku wa chi o hau
sore wa nai tte hitori oite
yokaze o kiri nagara

You dance through the air and wait
and I crawl on the ground.
I said “you can’t!” but you left me behind
while cutting through the night breeze.

CUEを出して弾いて
君を歌うよ
離さないでこの気持ちを
夜風を切りながら

CUE o dashite hiite
kimi o utau yo
hanasanaide kono kimochi o
yokaze o kiri nagara

I give the cue and play
singing about you.
Don’t let go of this feeling
while cutting through the night breeze.

boys

Vocals: 初音ミク (Hatsune Miku)
Lyrics: 大沼パセリ (Oonuma Paseri)
Composed by: 大沼パセリ (Oonuma Paseri)
Release Date: February 20, 2018

Requested by: Veravriem
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騙して盗んだ愛
許してこんな僕を
目に溜まった水を拭いてあげるよ

damashite nusunda ai
yurushite konna boku o
me ni tamatta mizu o fuite ageru yo

I deceived you and stole love.
Please, forgive me.
I’ll wipe away the water gathering in your eyes.

壊して拾った恋
許されぬ結末を
斜に構えながら堕ちていこうぜ

kowashite hirotta koi
yurusarenu ketsumatsu o
sha ni kamae nagara ochite ikou ze

I broke then picked up love.
This conclusion is inexcusable.
Let’s fall while remaining on guard.

隠した言葉
見せない表情
どうして どうしてなの
僕じゃだめなの

kakushita kotoba
misenai hyoujou
doushite doushite nano
boku ja dame nano

Hidden words.
An expression I won’t show.
Why, why, I wonder?
Why am I no good?

殺したい痛い痛い痛いくらい
君を愛しては
惨めさが増し滑稽だな
壊したい痛い痛い痛いくらい
君を愛してる
惨めな僕を優しく包み込んで

koroshitai itai itai itai kurai
kimi o aishite wa
mijimesa ga mashi kokkei da na
kowashitai itai itai itai kurai
kimi o aishiteru
mijime na boku o yasashiku tsutsumikonde

I want to kill so much it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
The wretchedness of loving you
is even funnier, isn’t it?
I want to destroy so much it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
I love you.
I’m so wretched. Tenderly hold me close.

笑って凌いだ愛
許してこんな僕を
傷付いた躰にそっと触れてみる

waratte shinoida ai
yurushite konna boku o
kizutsuita karada ni sotto furete miru

I laughed and kept love out.
Please, forgive me.
I gingerly touch your wounded corpse.

君の 声や 仕草や 色々
僕を 壊す 魔法のよう

kimi no koe ya shigusa ya iroiro
boku o kowasu mahou no you

Your voice, your gestures, and everything else
are all like magic that destroys me.

殺したい痛い痛い痛いくらい
君を愛しては
惨めさが増し滑稽だな
壊したい痛い痛い痛いくらい
君を愛してる
惨めな僕を優しく包み込んで

koroshitai itai itai itai kurai
kimi o aishite wa
mijimesa ga mashi kokkei da na
kowashitai itai itai itai kurai
kimi o aishiteru
mijime na boku o yasashiku tsutsumikonde

I want to kill so much it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
The wretchedness of loving you
is even funnier, isn’t it?
I want to destroy so much it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
I love you.
I’m so wretched. Tenderly hold me close.

殺したい痛い痛い痛いくらい
殺したい痛い痛い痛いくらい

koroshitai itai itai itai kurai
koroshitai itai itai itai kurai

I want to kill so much it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
I want to kill so much it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.

殺したい痛い痛い痛いくらい
君を愛しては
惨めさが増し滑稽だな
壊したい痛い痛い痛いくらい
君を愛してる
惨めな僕を優しく包み込んで

koroshitai itai itai itai kurai
kimi o aishite wa
mijimesa ga mashi kokkei da na
kowashitai itai itai itai kurai
kimi o aishiteru
mijime na boku o yasashiku tsutsumikonde

I want to kill so much it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
The wretchedness of loving you
is even funnier, isn’t it?
I want to destroy so much it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
I love you.
I’m so wretched. Tenderly hold me close.

白紙の言葉
hakushi no kotoba
Words on a Blank Page

Vocals: 初音ミク (Hatsune Miku)
Lyrics: 大沼パセリ (Oonuma Paseri)
Composed by: 大沼パセリ (Oonuma Paseri) 
Release Date: March 2, 2019

Requested by: fay
Watch the official PV here!

紙とペンで綴る
僕のだらしがない365ページ
振り返れば不利ばかり
余力なんてこれっぽっちも
何にもないし
とんでもないし
愛してるから

kami to pen de tsudzuru
boku no darashi ga nai 365 peeji
furi kaereba furi bakari
yoryoku nante koreppocchi mo
nani mo nai shi
tondemonai shi
aishiteru kara

With pen and paper,
I wrote untidily across 365 pages.
When I look back, all I encountered was hardship.
I have hardly any energy left to spare.
It was nothing.
No need to mention it.
After all, I love you.

水滴をぽとり落とす
弾け飛ぶ斑点凡例の言葉
気が付いたら傷ばかり
余力なんてこれっぽっちも

suiteki o potori otosu
hajike tobu hanten hanrei no kotoba
ki ga tsuitara kizu bakari
yoryoku nante koreppocchi mo

Drops plop down
and flying flecks form some explanatory remarks.
Before I knew it, I was covered in wounds.
I had hardly any energy, or anything else, left to spare.

組み合わせては崩れるパズル
ピースを集めてpeace peace peace
隙だらけでは生きていけないな
両手に忍ばせbang bang bang
長文の想いがのしかかって
崩れてしまう

kumiawasete wa kuzureru pazuru
piisu o atsumete peace peace peace
suki darake de wa ikite ikenai na
ryoute ni shinobase bang bang bang
choubun no omoi ga noshikakatte
kuzurete shimau

I put the puzzle together and then break it apart.
I gather up the pieces. Peace, peace, peace…
I can’t live with nothing but weak spots.
Hiding them in both hands, bang, bang, bang…
I leaned on the feelings in my long sentences
and they collapsed.

白紙の言葉

hakushi no kotoba

Words on a blank page.

バラバラに分解された記憶が
いつか何処か巡り会えるように
夜空に浮かぶ星屑のように
残像として輝いてるかな
ビリビリに破り捨てた想いが
いつか何処か巡り会えるように
夜風に揺れる君の前髪
あの日々として輝いてるかな

bara bara ni bunkai sareta kioku ga
itsuka dokoka meguri aeru you ni
yozora ni ukabu hoshikuzu no you ni
zansou toshite kagayaiteru kana
biri biri ni yaburi suteta omoi ga
itsuka dokoka meguri aeru you ni
yokaze ni yureru kimi no maegami
ano hibi toshite kagayaiteru kana

I hope that I’ll someday reencounter
my memories, dismantled into many pieces.
Perhaps they’re shining in the sky as an afterimage
like stardust floating in the night sky.
I hope that I’ll someday re-encounter
my cast-off feelings, torn away and ripped apart.
Perhaps your fringe, swaying in the night breeze,
Shines like it did in those days.

空箱に閉じ込められた鳥のよう
泣き喚く声が雨となって心を濡らす

karabako ni tojikomerareta tori no you
nakiwameku koe ga ame to natte kokoro o nurasu

Like a bird locked in an empty box,
My screams become rain and drench my heart.

何にもないし
とんでもないし
愛してるけど
本質ばかり探して
ぎゅうぎゅう窮屈苦しい
書き留める余白は
もう、もうないんだ

nani mo nai shi
tondemonai shi
aishiteru kedo
honshitsu bakari sagashite
gyuu gyuu kyuukutsu kurushii
kakitomeru yohaku wa
mou, mou nai nda

It was nothing at all.
No need to mention it.
I love you, but…
I only search for your true nature.
Things are packed in tightly and it hurts.
There just aren’t any more blank spaces left
for me to write things down in…

曖昧に誘拐された記憶が
いつか何処か取り戻せるように
夜空に浮かぶ星屑のように
残像として輝いてるかな
生活に落とした想いが
いつか誰か伝わりますように
夜風に揺れる君の前髪
あの日々として輝いてるかな

aimai ni yuukai sareta kioku ga
itsuka dokoka torimodoseru you ni
yozora ni ukabu hoshikuzu no you ni
zansou toshite kagayaiteru kana
seikatsu ni otoshita omoi ga
itsuka dareka tsutawarimasu you ni
yokaze ni yureru kimi no maegami
ano hibi toshite kagayaiteru kana

I hope that I’ll someday, somewhere, reclaim
my memories, which were abducted in vague circumstances.
Perhaps they’re shining in the sky as an afterimage
like stardust floating in the night sky
I hope that I’ll someday convey my feelings,
Which I left behind in my daily life, to someone.
Perhaps your fringe, swaying in the night breeze,
Shines like it did in those days.

バラバラに分解された記憶が
いつか何処か巡り会えるように
夜空に浮かぶ星屑のように
残像として輝いてるかな
ビリビリに破り捨てた想いが
いつか何処か巡り会えるように
夜風に揺れる君の前髪
あの日々として輝いてるかな

bara bara ni bunkai sareta kioku ga
itsuka dokoka meguri aeru you ni
yozora ni ukabu hoshikuzu no you ni
zansou toshite kagayaiteru kana
biri biri ni yaburi suteta kioku ga
itsuka dokoka meguri aeru you ni
yokaze ni yureru kimi no maegami
ano hibi toshite kagayaiteru kana

I hope that I’ll someday reencounter
my memories, dismantled into many pieces.
Perhaps they’re shining in the sky as an afterimage
like stardust floating in the night sky.
I hope that I’ll someday re-encounter
my cast-off feelings, torn away and ripped apart. (1)
Perhaps your fringe, swaying in the night breeze,
Shines like it did in those days.

(1) For the final chorus, 想い (omoi – feelings) is sung as 記憶 (kioku – memories).

エゴイスト
egoisuto
Egoist

Vocals: flower
Lyrics: 大沼パセリ (Oonuma Paseri)
Composed by: 大沼パセリ (Oonuma Paseri)
Release Date: September 12, 2018

Requested by: SpaceZinnia
Watch the official video here!

人生相談があります
聞いてくれますか先生
大概病んでる生活
退会させてよ先生

jinsei soudan ga arimasu
kiite kuremasu ka sensei
taigai yanderu seikatsu
taikai sasete yo sensei

I want to talk about something life-related.
Won’t you listen to me, professor?
I usually spend my days falling ill.
Let me withdraw from school, professor!

人生辛抱わかって
気付いてくれますか先生
大概病んでる生活
早退させてよ先生

jinsei shinbou wakatte
kizuite kuremasu ka sensei
taigai yanderu seikatsu
soutai sasete yo sensei

I understand that patience is important in life.
Won’t you realise it, professor?
I usually spend my days falling ill.
Let me go home early, professor!

オレンジ色に染まる君は
やがて暗闇に染まる溶ける
月日経っても消えない苦しみ
不気味な夜を君と共に
おやすみおやすみ
おやすみおかえり

orenjiiro ni somaru kimi wa
yagate kurayami ni somaru tokeru
tsukihi hakatte mo kienai kurushimi
bukimina yoru o kimi to tomo ni
oyasumi oyasumi
oyasumi okaeri

You, dyed orange,
Will melt into darkness before long.
Though time passes, my anguish will not disappear.
I spend an eerie night together with you.
Good night. Good night.
Good night. Welcome home…

感情的になってバイバイだ
誰よりも速く遠くへ行けよ
後戻りはしないよ
後先なんてないから

kanjouteki ni natte baibai da
dare yori mo hayaku tooku e yuke yo
atomodori wa shinai yo
atosaki nante nai kara

Get sentimental, and it’s goodbye.
Go quicker and further away than anyone else!
There’s no going back from here.
After all, there’s no consequences.

衝動的になって正解だ
誰よりも夜を越えて行けよ
後戻りはしないよ
後先なんてないから

shoudouteki ni natte seikai da
dare yori mo yoru o koete ike yo
atomodori wa shinai yo
atosaki nante nai kara

Becoming impulsive is the right move.
Cross through the night, more than anyone else!
There’s no going back from here.
After all, there’s no consequences.

嫌い…
辛い…
有象無象…
不承不承…

kirai…
tsurai…
uzoumuzou…
fushoubushou…

I hate you…
It hurts…
Everything…
I’m reluctant…

人生劣等わかって
気付いてくれますか先生
大抵泣いてる生活
早退させてよ先生

jinsei rettou wakatte
kizuite kuremasu ka sensei
taitei naiteru seikatsu
soutai sasete yo sensei

I know my life’s inferior.
Have you noticed, professor?
I usually spend my days crying.
Let me go home early, professor!

奥にしまった君の笑顔は
やがて暗闇に染まる溶ける
月日経っても消えない思い出
不気味な夜を君と共に
おやすみおやすみ
おやすみただいま

oku ni shimatta kimi no egao wa
yagate kurayami ni somaru tokeru
tsukihi hakatte mo kienai omoide
bukimina yoru o kimi to tomo ni
oyasumi oyasumi
oyasumi tadaima

You had entered my heart, and your smile
will melt into darkness before long.
Though time passes, my memories will not disappear.
I spend an eerie night together with you.
Good night. Good night.
Good night. Welcome home…

盲目的になってバイバイだ
誰よりも速く遠くへ行けよ
後戻りはしないよ
後先なんてないから

moumokuteki ni natte baibai da
dare yori mo hayaku tooku e yuke yo
atomodori wa shinai yo
atosaki nante nai kara

Get reckless, and it’s goodbye.
Go quicker and further away than anyone else!
There’s no going back from here.
After all, there’s no consequences.

冷笑的になって正解だ
誰よりも夜を越えて行けよ
後戻りはしないよ
後先なんてないから

reishouteki ni natte seikai da
dare yori mo yoru o koete yuke yo
atomodori wa shinai yo
atosaki nante nai kara

Becoming sarcastic is the right move.
Cross through the night, more than anyone else!
There’s no going back from here.
After all, there’s no consequences.

感情的になってバイバイだ
誰よりも速く遠くへ行けよ
後戻りはしないよ
後先なんてないから

kanjouteki ni natte baibai da
dare yori mo hayaku tooku e yuke yo
atomodori wa shinai yo
atosaki nante nai kara

Get sentimental, and it’s goodbye.
Go quicker and further away than anyone else!
There’s no going back from here.
After all, there’s no consequences.

衝動的になって正解だ
誰よりも夜を越えて行けよ
後戻りはしないよ
後先なんてないから

shoudouteki ni natte seikai da
dare yori mo yoru o koete yuke yo
atomodori wa shinai yo
atosaki nante nai kara

Becoming impulsive is the right move.
Cross through the night, more than anyone else!
There’s no going back from here.
After all, there’s no consequences.